Killing Loneliness

FUCK YOU AND DIE.. i love it.

2008-09-21T04:05:00.004+08:00

I love Norther. Must i say this again? Kickass band. Their music has been an inspiration for me to write my own piece(s). Lyrics has been influenced by them. They're the best. at least for me. I won't die of boredom listening to their shit over and over again. Not only them obviously. Metal music never bores me. To hell with those who disagree.

I'm not going to update this shit everytime. and fuck you if you think my updates sucks if its all about lyrics. I don't fucking care. HAH.

Next lyrics I'm going topost, Norther's Death Unlimited from the same named album. hah. Melodic Death. hail to the north. And for those who love melodic stuff. try listening to Catamenia. Melodic Black Metal. Start with Tuhat Vuotta. the rest, epic. at least for me.

Norther - Death Unlimited

Saatana! vittu perkele!

Welcome to my world of death and pain
Oh it drives you so insane
I am no blast from the past
Because I'm death and I'm everlast

I'm the future breed, evil and mean
A fucking killing machine
No-one will stay alive and see
They all will die and join me

Fuck you and die,
Living is so damn painful
It's coll to be dead and grateful
Nothing can hurt you anymore
Anyhow death is so much more

You can just kill, kill and kill
Just kill em all if you will
Do you still wanna stay alive
Or join me by my side

I am the Death Unlimited
And death is all I have to give
I'll tell you the meaning of life
It's not to live but to die
I am the Death Unlimited
And death is all I have to give
Let me spill your sweet blood
And to you I am god

Can you feel the dark side calling
It's useless to resist
Give in to fear, hate and anger
Then life won't take your time any longer

Only I am by your side
Soon your life is gone
And that I adore

I am the Death Unlimited
And death is all I have to give
I'll tell you the meaning of life
It's not to live but to die
I am the Death Unlimited
And death is all I have to give
Let me spill your sweet blood
And to you I am god

-END-

Love the intro. And 2nd verse. \m/

Those of you who wish to listen to 'no-growl' metal. Go listen to Nightwish. Nemo, Amaranth, bla3. Symphonic metal. POWER DOK!! Female vocals. Their live shows...FUH..ROCKER CHICKS EVERYWHERE SIOL.. hahha

Anyway, some fuckers may say Norther lyrics are pathetic. all about death, bla3. sort of emo. Well, FUCK YOU AND DIE!! haha. must i say again that love that phrase. the anger is like wow! Petri Lindroos is god man.

Ahh~~ time to eat my sahor. Fuck You people. If you think you deserve that greeting from me, nudge me when I'm online and I'll repeat the same phrase over and over again. HAH. suckers.

SATANAAAAAA!!! VITTU PERKELE!!!

Betrayed

2008-08-22T01:58:00.004+08:00

I've fallen for Norther's music style. I assume you all don't know what Norther is. It's a melo-death metal band from Finland, Helsinki to be exact if I'm not wrong. Listeners sometimes compare them to Children Of Bodom(Alexi Laiho!) due to the similar genre they play. But from my point of view, they are totally different. Both are great bands. But I prefer to listen to Norther when I'm in the kind of angry, disturbed, stressed etc mood. And it calms me down though. Anyway, enough of the mini introduction to the band.
These few days have been weird indeed. Writing lyrics, tabbing out my own guitar tabs, improvising own my own solos. When i should have actually been studying my heavy ass off. There don't seem to be any source of motivation for me to study. I tried though. But it never came fruitful. One reason is obviously cos i have lost the need to study after the electives results. But am trying to overcome that. Have already set a new goal in mind. But it just seems as though I can't give it a headstart. Bleargh. Just pray for the best of it.
Vishnu ah neh turned18(finally!) on the 18th this month. Happy Belated Birhtday to you man. All the best in life. and next time take the bread.gundu. haha

Tomorrow's the first paper. Or should I say, Later. Yeap. The latter seems much more appropriate.

Enough talking. I'm gonna study now.

And here's Norther's Betrayed. Fucking kick ass song. Lyrics are understood-able. its melo-DEATH. Duh~~ with a capital D~~~... enjoy, cunts!

One morning I woke up,
realised I've been betrayed
shadows of yesterday
fill my mind as I drift away
no matter what's ahead.
I'll face the death
I'll find my hate
this twisted fate I have
shall lead the way
and make you brake

One night I went to die,
deceived again,
I was ready to fly
thousand blades waiting for me,
so fuck you all,
I was meant to be free
my hate was cheating me,
is this the path,
I cannot see
too many bridges burned,
can't you see I am the traitor

[chorus]
would you die for my hate now
burning in my eyes,
burning me inside.
I guess I now have to cut you
while lying by your side,
I'm out of my mind
[chorus]

this time the conspiracy,
in your mind went out of line
no more forgiving,
close your eyes I'll help you to die
in the night I am beside you,
weird voices in my mind
you're asleep and I love you,
but more than thousand times I cut you

[chorus]
would you die for my hate now
burning in my eyes,
burning me inside
I guess I now have to cut you
while lying by your side,
I'm out of my mind!
[chorus]

that night I took your life
and now this traitor dies
and so he died...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jAqK0OTvhCI

bonsoir!

2008-07-31T01:42:00.002+08:00

ahh.. main exams coming in a few weeks time. what a great time to look forward to. *fucking sarcasm*. good thing there's only 3 papers to sit for. but all are fucked up subjects. MCT, Emath3 and Dynamics. fuck that last subject. a pain in the head. and accompanied by 'very good' quiz marks. fuh. its gonna be 'fun'. for those who care, pray for me lah eh. just that i wont repeat any subject next semester is enough. haha.

havent been blogging lately. not a need to. lazy to use the computer at night is the main reason. currently memorising my french scripts. have to do a roleplay on friday. fucking 'fun' for sure. fuck lah.. exams exams exams. now we trying not to play takraw so we can study for our respective papers. haha. fucking cunts. AS IF i'll seriously hold a fucking book and solve its questions. at most a day before the paper. but hope big big ah that wont happen again. haha. -.-.

today while takraw-ing, syed ex-classmate broke our net. ajit's net to be exact. but it was seriously fucking funny. he wanted to tapak(go research) the ball and his leg got stuck and being heavy, the gravitational force pulls down the net with his leg and walla. the rest is history. fucking dynamics.

overall summary of the day; great. not really great cos kakak seri kitrg tak turon. haha. ramai org da rindukan kau tau kak..hahahaha.

k ciao mafakers. i finished dl-ing turisas' album. and i want to sleep cos tmr's school at 9am. fucking cunts. i need a sleep. badly. to replenish my worked out body. fuh. takraw gerek~~~

i really need to be serious in my studies. god help me please. and dont le me cock my presentation tomorrow.

ciao again.

takraw madness

2008-07-12T00:53:00.002+08:00

i'm definitely mad for takraw now. i dont know about the rest. but i sure am. haha. seems like its the stress reliever for me. after not getting into aerospace and stuff. blablabla.

and suddenly i'm lazy to blog. thanks ah eh. night.

Process control and automation

2008-07-03T22:55:00.002+08:00

Option results are out. Nope. I'm not getting into the Aerospace Option I dreamt of. I'm utterly disappointed. Seeing my only hope got away. Process Control and Automation. what the fuck is that? i should have gone to SP. sigh. i feel a whole lot worse than i was months ago.

ciao.

fallin

2008-06-24T23:11:00.002+08:00

due to the heavy rain just now, i've caught a cold. and my head feels dizzy. coughing is a routine every minute. fdhsfgdfg. throat feels sore. i'm falling sick. but i should be able to make it for takraw tomorrow. i guess. before that, i need panadols. and beers. and metal music. haha. metal music and booze. woooo.

crucifixion's produced their own band tee. i guess i'll get one. mummy says our house need a new floor mat. haha. amir amir.

ahh.. fuck ah.. i cant go on. head's throbbing. and body's weak. gotta sleep for tomorrow's early class. at fucking 8am. go and die lah MCT.

ciao.

Sleepy

2008-06-24T02:18:00.002+08:00

current mood - sleepy like fuck.

school just re-opened. only attended one class just now. as usual. fucking 4 hours spent in lab. boring. boring lah. who wants to talk about classes in school sia. fuck. standard. after school lepak. at 245. with ajit azip acap and avin. avin got dared to shout like a tarzan at the center of this particular field. instead, he acted as a gorilla. up to him lah. haha.

wednesday takraw. weee~~~

lazy lah.

a huge pair of middle finger to heart fuckers. geez. my, thats random.

ciao.

Alexi Laiho

2008-06-18T03:40:00.002+08:00

I think I'm turning gay. I've been looking at his photos and watching his vids on youtube. Damn. He's good looking to me. The kind of person I look up to. He has been an idol of mine for the past few years since i first listened to his songs. Alexi Laiho. Children Of Bodom's guitarist. fuck yeah he's hot. to me. haha. god, get my mind straight. hahahaha. geez. i'd kill myself if i were to really mean everything i just said. He's just one guy I look up to. cool guy.

Azip dyed his hair. And pierced his lower lips. ahhhhh. mat mat rep rep. hehe.. tmr takraw. wooo. lepak.

Addicted to the song by The Ting Tings - That's Not My Name. hehe. cute and catchy. haha.

to a7x fans, watch this link and have a bloody good laugh.
http://youtube.com/watch?v=ybDCObQRRM4&feature=related

ciao mafakers.

Agility Fairs and Events

2008-06-17T01:52:00.003+08:00

Been somewhat 'camping' at Singapore Expo for the past 4 days. Started work on Friday. It was super slack. out of the 8 working hours, only half-hour was spent doing real work. the rest, sleeping. haha. worked with seth and his brother, matrep. after work, played pool before dropping by zul's chalet.

Saturday, ajit and acap joined. more work was done. and it was tiring. yes. not all the way slacking. just that we had the permission to rest whenever we want. and to be honest. no one wanted to sleep. but when all work we were supposed to do were done, there's nothing else to be done except for sleep. haha. damn bloody pigs. oh yeah. we are working under seth's dad. just so you readers know. worked from 830 till 530.. headed home straight after that. and bounced to zul's chalet immediately. the first thing done there was to EAT!! ahh.. the bloody patty's fucking nice. fuck. i'm drooling about it as i'm typing the 'patty'.. wahhhhh.. that means i drooled twice. nyeh. the chickens..FUH!!! anything about chicken makes me go 'fuh' actually. hah. -.-. then the whole lot of us watched midnight movie. 'The Happening' is an interesting story. for me at least. it was very imaginative. but heck ah. all i cared was watching movie at the cinemas. its been 4 months.. exactly 4 months ago since i last watched a movie. back then it was 'jumper'. hah. bla bla bla. then heaed back to the chalet where zul and vish talk lame till 530.. hilarious. an eg.
vishnu(v) - eh, wads the island singapore won against malaysia ah?
zul(z) - oh that one ah.. ermm.. pedra branca
v - ahh ya.. u can take bus 67 go there rite..
z - u take 168 ah. oso can.
get wat i mean? its all lame. but was damn funny when they talked about it in their sleepy self. haha.. headed home ard 615. and reported at work at 830. fuck. all of us were sleepyshits when working on sunday. haha. just when i though it would be the last day, mr ramlan said that yesterday will be the last day of work. so headed home straight after work on sunday and went straight to sleep. haha. woke up feeling fresh and work on monday was good. plenty of things to do. plenty of time to rest. all was fine. got overtime sumore. haha. just what i needed during this hols. k done.

the next few days will be spent on doing school projects. fucks. before working again on friday. hehe.

i wanna buy a beanie and a cap. i already got a hat(thx!), so these 3 things are the headgears i need. i wanna grow long hair so when its the time that the hair is at its ugliest state a.k.a the mangkok state, i'll just turn to either one of these and wear it for school. ha ha.

seri sent me a pic. a funny one. haha. well, here it is.

Ronaldo giving rooney first class blowjob.

LOOK AT ROONEY'S FUCK FACE. BUAHAHAHAHA. FUCKING HILARIOUS. hahaha
hur hur.

I'm tired lah. and bored. i'll head to bed uh. and not try not to think anything abt it. cos it can be settled hopefully settled by tmr with my group mates. jia lat.

ciao.

*taking care
afiz*

Ensiferum - Lai Lai Hei

2008-06-13T01:30:00.006+08:00

Han katsoi maan reunalta tahtea putoavaa
Nyt kanuiit kasvot neitosen peittaa karu maa
Jokaisen taytyy katsoa silmiin totuuden
silla aika ompi voittoisa, mut' tama maa on ikuinen

There's a place in the North, far far away
Home for the wandering man
Dreaming fells with skies so pale
Calm is the glorious land
Flames will send the sign to the sky that we have come to feast tonight
The lakes are echoing with our song
Shadows are dancing on the forest walls

Enchantment of the fire and moon
Lost in the whispering night
The raven's magic enthralls the woods
Crawling in the sweet starlight
We have gathered in this distant land full of wisdom, secrets and tales
The morning will never rise again
Roaming wolves are howling for the dead

LAI LAI HEI!

He watched a falling star, at the edge of the world
Now the maiden's beautiful face is covered in barren earth
Everyone has to look into the eyes of the truth,
for time is victorious, but this land will always stay true

Been glued to this track by Ensiferum. Lai Lai Hei. great song. For those who don't know, Ensiferum's a folk/viking metal band from Finland. Yes. And the first few parts of the lyrics are in Finnish. A sudden urge to learn the song. and after 3 days, I'm able to say that the rhythm and most lead parts are playable. Still working on the last solo. Sounds easy. and its quite easy. but just taking my time because there's no amp in my house and its difficult to listen to me play it without amps amplifying my sound. I need one. DADdieeeeeeee!!!!~~~~~~ .heh.

boring ah. ajit go dbl.O. long time never lepak with him. geez. congrats to u man. left 2 pracs and a TP and you're officially licensed to ride a bike. haha.

next pic is a pic i suppose only we know whats exactly going on. haha. amir's short hair is not clear here though. hah

GAME ON!

i need to sleep. work tmr. nite. ciao.

i want a stingray. and Ensiferum wears skirts when performing. cool~~..

KANASAIIIII

2008-06-12T01:59:00.002+08:00

alamak. cunt. i forgot to take pic with amir showing off his new hair ah.. fuck fuck fuck. tmr lah. hehe. friday, saturday and sunday working. supposedly. hope it'll happen. aiyah. but got that 9-10pm one ah.. ccb..

PORTUGAL WON LAH CIAO CB! THROUGH TO THE QUARTER-FINALS!!.. woooooooooo.. PORTUGAL 3 - 1 CZECH REPUBLIC
WOOOOOOOOO.. KANASAI.. HAPPY SIOT...

i'm too happy now that I want to watch naruto..

and yah..i got cigarettes!!!

ciao-

KEMAROKOK

2008-06-11T01:10:00.002+08:00

Been staying at home for the past few days. relaxing at home.

Starts tomorrow, school.
thursday, seth say i may work. wee~.
friday. helping out with zul's chalet.
saturday. zul's chalet and midnight movie if all goes well.

BUT THE ONLY THING THAT IS DAMPENING MY MOOD IS THAT
I AM OUT OF FUCKING CIGARETTES. period.

on a lighter note, amir cut his hair. and haha does he look funny. hehe.

till i find cigarettes.ciao

The day i survived on bloody(sauced) burgers.

2008-06-08T02:36:00.003+08:00

Who knows a day which started out slowly would turn out great at the end. =)

Started out with me helping my uncle move out. This time, another uncle. Bedok South to Pasir Ris. but throughout those hours i helped, all i could think of was the upcoming gig in the afternoon. and spending fun times with the gang. whoops. clan. whoops. toncak. hahaha

i came late. with ajit acap and KHAI. lamer tk dengar khabar. anyways, met up with the rest, azip zul seri and vish. then all of us entered and started to enjoy~~~~~.. aidil, nad and firzan matrep joined in later.. skank, skank, skank.. ajit was reliving his old days i suppose. khai too as well.. ajit elbowed this girl who eventually held her face in her hands.. funny fucks. cesspit was great. no buts. just great. the sallys was great as well. haha.. easier said, what happened throughout in there cant be explained in words by me. i hate vocab. random.

ajit was disturbed by aidil. kekek. anw, done talking. wanna watch my second national side take on the turks on tv. IF i subscribed to the euro package channel.. ciao..

TONCAK . with leena/lina , firzan, nad

Term Test Fiva

2008-06-04T01:27:00.003+08:00

i havent been studying. period.
i'm wasting my time staying up till late nites trying to study.
but a single thing won't get into my head.
sucks.
trying to absorb MCT's topics into my head.
2 more papers to go.
sigh.
i wish i had a smart person's brain.
damn.
it'll just make my studying better that way.

fuck cunts la. i'm out of cigarettes. how siol this sat. i still got 3 more days to et my hands on a new pack. argh.

out.

STUDYING TIME

2008-06-01T01:00:00.003+08:00

Sorry for the lack of updates. alah. like anyone cares about it. haha. been busy with projects for the past week. early nights but tired body. but at this point of time i'm having a swollen right arm. thanks to yesterdays' 'hulk' competition. its all blueblack with abrasions. ouch. stupid idea lah vish. haha

Anw, went studying with amir berg, zul cutie, vish doggie and acap hunter near PR west plaza. funny. everyone was into studying for the first 2 hours at least. but by the time it was 9pm, everyone became restless. BUT. vishnu doggie wasn't. he started dancing and stuff. i'll upload a vid of his most energetic dance yet at the end of the post. its hilarious yet lame. cos all were in the lame mood, even the sligtest lame thing is funny. haha.

Past few days have been stressful. YES. STRESSFUL. project submissions. term test preparations. lack of cigarettes. haha. yeap. all these contribute to my stress. nothing more. french attendance is way below 85%. giulano was disappointed. cos i scored well for the last quiz. but there'll be no other grade for me except an ungraded passing mark even if i'd do very well in the end. haiya. see la. classes at 9 are irritants to me. fuck.

7th June. gig at youth park. 13/14th June. Donkey's chalet. Ton. 28th June. Aidil's chalet. ahh.. fuck term test. cos I can only look forward to these dates after term test. fuck.

OK LA. going study now. here's vish's dancing vid. kwang kwang kwang~~~

stand up comedy

2008-05-25T03:18:00.002+08:00

been glued watching dane cook and daniel tosh and dave chapelle. stand up comedians. they are all fucking funny. but so far, dane cook's been the best. cos its his vids are the ones i watch the most. yet. haha. watch his vids people. when you're doing nothing, watch it. and have a good laugh. russell peters' are usually jokes of races(not racist though) but cook's been nonsensing around about normal things we do. and i dare say his descriptions are true. haha. just go to youtube and search dane cook or the other 2 comedians and have a good laugh watching their vids. satisfaction guaranteed.hah.

its already 4am. and i've spent 4 hours watching these buggers' videos. its addictive la. haha. but now my eyes are tired. and imma sleep now. nites.

yesterday was weird. but its nothing already. haha. weird feeling.

hate

2008-05-24T01:33:00.003+08:00

sigh. i hate this feeling. fell asleep for a while when waiting for naruto to load and the thought of her suddenly appeared in my mind. out of nowhere. usually its manageable to shrug it off. but now, its still affecting me. am i too tired or wad. haiz. its sumtin i cant explain. yes, i miss her. but i'm not suppose to feel it this way. as in how i have beenfor the past couple of minutes. what the hell.

i'll try going to sleep i guess. if only there's someone talking to me rite now on the phone as how it had been before this happened.

ah. fuck it. fuck this particular feeling. i hate it.

yes. if anyone find this funny. laugh all you want. that's random. but sumhow i mean it.

2008-05-24T00:17:00.003+08:00

didnt go gig. but played soccer. it was worth it. fun fun fun. but tiring. played for 2 hours straight. no break. not even smoke break for me. but water break obviously la. anyways. feels good playing soccer weekly. so far. suppose next wk i'm gonna study. yes. study. cos term test's the week after. only one word comes to my senses when i think of studying. 'aerospace'. haha. serious shit. ok back to today. played soccer from 5 to 8. i felt lighter though. only for an hour or so. cos at nite, ate at the prata shop near school. and i feel heavier now than before. kah kah. ajit and zul now look like good boys. like secondary school boys la. cos they cut their hair. and it turned out quite bad. but what to expect from a 6dollars haircut. ajit kept blaming zul. cos he wanted to cut at istanbul. but bla3. it turned out they both got their hairs cut at the shop near techno. haha. lepak and played the new game which i dunno the name. a game that has been played everyday since monday. haha. and then headed home.

and now i'm sleepy. but must wake up at 4 to send my sis to work. but i dun want to sleep cos if i do, chances of me waing up later is so super low. haha.

salut!

UCL Final 08

2008-05-22T00:40:00.002+08:00

2 hours left till that big game. Manchester United vs Chelsea. cool or wad. while waiting, I'm.. studying for my dynamics test tomorrow. sucks. i dun have any idea of how the subject goes and what is taught. lectures' been given a miss. haha. lazy. supposedly there's 3 hours worth of lectures tomorrow. but idun think i'm going for anyone of it. haha.

*the last train just left for its depot*. randomness.

its a good thing that both of them are coping well. am actually quite happy that it was all smiles after that also. haha. thats good to hear and see.

oh ya. one more thing. just now, while me, amir, fit and zul were smoking at engine school's staircase, a lecturer came in. luckily there was only one of her. she was like "boys, matric card please". and in our minds, all were thinking of the same thing. Run. but at thesame time, we were smoking in front of her like as though she's smoking as well. haha. it was funny. when all of us dashed off, fit, who was last to run, observed the lecturer's expression. all we could hear was "Boys... Boys.." But fit saw her pitiful face and laughed all the way while we were running, while cigarettes still lit in our hands. not everyone uh. haha. it was fun though. but i cant stop laughing when i was told to imagine TP having a sports course, and the lecturer caught us smoking, with him/her wearing shorts and sports shoe. i guess all of us will just give our matric card without even the slightest thought of running away. haha.

haiya. funny lah. time to study. 2 hours or isit 1 hour plus to study before the match. wee~~

update

2008-05-21T03:00:00.005+08:00

an update.

i'm doing good.
updating now cos i'm too stressed up with the research i need to do for mct.
fucking ridiculuous topic lah fuck.
"how to set the timer to program the microcontroller to water the plant"
like what the fuck kan?
chibai lah. then must do flowchart some more.
definitely i'm gonna sleep at 5 today.
and wake up 2 hours later.
fuck cunts.
nina buey.

past few days' been great.
chill. concert. shisha. lepak.
but i'm tired. haha. i want to sleeeeeep. and think of kurara. hahaha. -.-
friday got herfi's gig at NYP.
i guess i'm coming down.
i promised him before hand i'll try to come.
suppose i have to cancel plans for soccer.
hmm..
stressed..
this mct fuck lah.
kanina..
ok. end usage of vulgarities here.

i think i'll end the post here. oh! no no no. not without this update.

AMIR LOST TO AJIT IN THE NARUTO BATTLE!! HAHAHAHAHA

salut!

lol at sampoerna.still the apple of the eye eh.haha.=)

seriousness

2008-05-18T03:09:00.005+08:00

its been a while since i talked of serious stuff. so if this bothers any of you, then dont read it.

ok. here goes. i'd wanted to post such posts for quite some time. but i wasnt ready. and no time.haha. now that i am and there's plenty of time, i'll start..

when that 'oh-so-sad' ordeal happened around a month ago.. it just seemed as though everything is crushing down on me. i did stuff(s) which i never did before. like, crying(wth?). emo-ing. no appetites. haha. it's funny now that i view it. but that time, it just felt as though its the only thing i could do. to have that internal organ which has the same size as my fist broken/crushed badly. the pain just seemed unbearable for me. what else. it was my first love. and a serious one. at least for me. but, feelings change. i never did understand that. i asked myself countless of questions which i cannot answer. but that was when i was alone. these questions always pop up in my head when i'm alone. why. what. bla bla bla. the me back then was so.. useless. well, i always did wonder why is it that people grieves so much after having their heart broken. is grieving the right term? haha. anyway. i started to understand why. why they are so sad. i felt them. i went through what they did. and thats when i wanted to change it. feelings can be changed. and i wanted to believe in it.

the mind and heart are a strong combination when playing around with my head. i kept remembering her. i kept feeling her loss. i kept missing that warmth. bla bla bla. all those mushy-mushy things. but when it suddenly dawned on me that i'm not the right person for her, i just felt like shit. big time. all these are the cause of the mind and the heart. it definitely wasn't easy. but deep down, i know i have to think ahead. i didnt see myself being happy if i stayed that way. i started to have heart to heart talk with people i'll always love. my good friends and parents. siblings oso though only my kakak knows. haha. a lot of advices were given. duh. its difficult to accept reality. but as time goes by, the doubt that feelings can change becomes a belief. the feelings being said are not those feelings when you play games then you happy and when you fall you sad. i'm talking about deep feelings. the ones that causes hurt and provides happiness in you.

i started to forget and not care about it. even when school reopens and i saw her, i'd be willing to smile even though there seems to be avoided contact. then its just something i'd go with the flow. it wasnt of any use to think about it. there are other things i have to worry about. in simple terms, like how i always put a stand on such matters. if i'm not cared about, there's no reason i should care about it either. though i was lucky that school reopens quick. just so i have more things to worry about. and not just this. i became happier. with the friends i have. i just dont feel alone. i assume it just seems that i had been alone all these while. leading a single life. of course its life changing. cos in general, its just you and others whom you find important. its not you AND your partner AND others whom you find important. its different already.

as of now, i'm gratefully happy with how things turned out. i'm happy with how i'm coping with things. and we're on talking terms already. i suppose there's no more awkwardness. not to me for sure. being honest, yes, i do still think about the past. but the thing is, is there any way i can do to change it? nope. its just something i'd smile on and forget. but it'll take quite some time lah. not like so suddenly i'll forget it. that explains why sometimes i'm behaving weird in front of you guys. but in the end, i'm laughing away again. but if im super weird means im hungry lah. haha. like what acap said '' afiz. gi makan. nanti kau emo''. haha. thanks ah.

anyway. yes. i do believe now that feelings can change. even if you force it. there is a way that it'll change. but there's one thing that cant be force. you cant force love. it'll be a genuine mistake to force it.

but its funny when i think of the things said when a friend is heartbroken. esp those words to the offender. and those consoling words to those affected. ironic. haha

nites!

helium

2008-05-17T02:03:00.004+08:00

a tiring day.
was late for french. supposedly i'm not able to have graded marks. but giulano gave me another chance. cos i was attentive in class? cos i was a good boy? cos i look like a pig? spiderpig? neh neh. after everything's over, headed down to 'help' with ajit and seth's class for their ccn day. all i did was 'tailgate' them. haha.
then ajit was bored i suppose. he suddenly wanted to buy helium filled balloons. cos he wanted to sound like a chipmunk. ajit, seth, aidil and me tried. my attempts were unsuccessful. sigh. my diaphragm too big ah. but i think it has no link to why my attempts were unsuccessful. aidil nye kekek. seth nye ok. ajit nyer klakar rabak. haha. but fuck ah. i duno whether the vid is in my phone ah. arggh.. then aidil drove us around tampines in his cool estima car. cheh. drive around konon. padahal antar aku balek amek kasot tok maen bola. kah kah. that fucker played around with his brake, acting as hydrolics. sumore ppl look at our car. he acts as though he's enjoying the beat of the music. but the thing is, there's no music at all. hahaha. stupid 23 year old. kah kah. joking aeh..

anyway, then played soccer till.. dunno when before chilling near school. kekek ah time lepak. haha. i like..

here's the heliumed vids. only aidil's and seth's. i'll try finding ajit's. aidil's vid, the first one, listen to his laugh at the end of the vid. fucking hilarious. haha

sorry about the need to tilt ur head viewers.

thats all yaw. peace.

sigh...

spiderpig

2008-05-16T00:38:00.005+08:00

today was... unexpectedly good. but more to the great side. haha. school as usual was a bore. anw, the math test, i think i ace it ah. cos... haha. copied. kah kah kah. but progauto, no hope ah sia. even it was only 4 questions. arghh. wasted. should have studied.

after school, thats when things became unexpectedly good. firstly, i duont know how or why it happened. but i rode amir's bike with him as the pillion through and fro the bubble tea shop to the block in front of school where we usually lepak. or is it the other way. hmm.. no idea. but yeah. it was a 'wow' thing. no stall. no cockups. cept for one super late braking. the rest, haha. even amir say it was smooth. hehehehe. i mean, it was so random of him to just say he's lazy to ride the bike. he just passed me the key and hopped on after i started the bike. the rest is history lah dey. but i dun think it'll happen anymore. it was quite scary though. with the public vehicles all around. but a great experience. haha

at nite, lepak with acap ajit azip vish zul and seri. she joined in cos she's nothing to do. played a few games of 'babi'(pig). our version of donkey since zul is already a donkey so we find other animals. the person who loses 3 times has to forfeit and act as a pig for 10secs. ajit's 10secs to be exact. sadly, that pig was me. and yea, they took a video of it. and i'm going to post it at the end of this entry. ah fuck. haha.

tiring yet fun day. and i'm out of ciggies. oops! i should have already quit it. but.... i dun feel like it YET. haha.

last week was vish's forfeit. this week's mine. haha

oink!

peace

quizzes are up again..

2008-05-15T00:23:00.003+08:00

current mood - clueless.
fuck yeah. clueless of how to understand emath3. tried studying just now. but fell asleep. hoping that it'd turn out to be a power nap. skali wake up at 11. i slept at 8 btw. 3 hours. hmm..ok la. still considered a nap. but fucking piece of shit cake. i'm sooooo sleepy and ermm draggy? steamy eyes. migrained brain. sigh. what else, there are 2 quizzes in total tomorrow. emath3 and progauto. its about pneumatics so far. dunno whats that? an example will be MRT doors. it opens up by itself all thanks to programs we humans do. and yeah. i'm learning to program such stuff. seems useless. if i get into aerospace, i think this is useful only when learning how to program opening the aircraft doors. only. like. wth

but the brightside of tomorrow is definitely the lepak after school ah. azip coming down. seth no climb. full squad? hmm.. azip want to lepak at somewhere gerek. most prob coffee bean. cos thats his suggestion. sane aje la eh. bole ak matrep? haha

past few days have been 'wow'. 3 different stories i've heard. and all are sort of similar in conclusion. well, my conclusion that is. and thats "some just deserves better". to this 3 people, its all up to you man.

i am so stressed up. amir fucking beat me to 3 rounds of naruto. yes. 3 rounds. to zero. i didnt even win a single round. puake nyer budak. and fucking bastard calls me his student after his win. puki ah amir. ninabuey. mentang2 kau dah tau timing frog aku. haha. tkpe. nanti aku train then sok kiter lawan lagik ah. on pe? hahaha. -.-. everyone's hooked on playing naruto sia. even acap and seth yg tk tau pape sal naruto pon da maen. but fun ah. haha.

so that sums it up. current mood - clueless, stressed, sleepy.

nite mafucka. salut!

downside of dreams

2008-05-12T22:19:00.002+08:00

dreams are sometimes assholic.
yeah.
especially those of the past.
reminding us people of those past(s).
those past that won't come back.
and when you wake up, its not what it seems moments ago.
sigh.
yeah. thats all that can be done.
sigh-ing.

and then OFF we go to enjoy the rest of the day.=)

2008-05-12T22:11:00.004+08:00

Man Utd won la sey. haha. too lazy to explain about this. yesterday night was tense. but in the end, it just turns out how its suppose to be. haha

celebrated mummy's day yesterday at aunty's house. full of food. i'm getting fatter for sure. haha. the nice food were just magnets to my eyes. i kept on eating. non-stop. even when it is already at night. eat eat eat. new slogan. keh keh keh

school was a bore just now. except for the workshop part. cool man. those machines. i like.. heh heh. anw, here's a video showing vishnu being what he is. just people dun see it often. hehe. here it is..

woof!

eve

2008-05-10T21:50:00.002+08:00

Celebrating mummy's day tomorrow. but still havent get anything for my mum. err. clueless of what to get for her. aiya. at most my sissies are gonna buy something and then i'm just gonna chip in some bit of money. haha.
waiting for iron man to load. still wondering whens the next time i'm gonna watch movie. well, the last was matrix revolution with ajit amir seth and the animals in school on thursday. haha. in theater? dunno when. within this month i'm sure. one day without cigarettes! eh cb. i want to play pool ah.

fuck donkey. he's been humming to the pinholes' song the whole day yesterday. and i'm addicted to doing the same thing. fuck cunts.

towning

2008-05-10T00:48:00.003+08:00

supposed to watched iron man just now. but it didnt turn out. so me, acap, seth and seri all followed zul to town to buy clothes. he wanted to hop for clotheS but in the end only bought a piece. haha. retard ass. roamed from shops to shops till zul gave up. chilled at mccafe for around 2 hours. smoked 12 sticks in total. haha. what the fuck. but but. i promised myself that the 12th stick would be the last stick. i hope. pray. whatever. haha. ajit failed prac 3 again. -.- . i'm off to watch online movie now.

salut!

THE OFFSPRING - CAN'T REPEAT

2008-05-08T00:20:00.002+08:00

this song, was frequently jammed during those jamming years for fun. but its a great yet meaningful song to listen to now.

I woke the other day
And saw my world has changed
The past is over but tomorrow's wishful thinking
I can't hold on what's been done
I can't grab on what's to come
And I'm just wishing I could stop, but

Life goes on
Come of age
Can't hold on
Turn the page
Time rolls on
Wipe these eyes
Yesterday laughs
Tomorrow cries

Memories are bittersweet
The good times we can't repeat
Those days are gone and we can never get them back
Now we must move ahead
Despite our fear and dread
We're all just wishing we could stop, but

Life goes on
Come of age
Can't hold on
Turn the page
Time rolls on
Wipe your eyes
Yesterday laughs
Tomorrow cries

With all our joys and fears
Wrapped in forgotten years
The past is laughing as today just slips away
Time tears down what we've made
And sets another stage
And I'm just wishing we could stop

Life goes on
Come of age
Can't hold on
Turn the page
Time rolls on
Wipe these eyes
Yesterday laughs
Tomorrow cries

Time rolls on

Offspring has the best lyrics to reflect on life. to me. haha. from the past with parents, friends, siblings. u get the pic. =)

UPDATE MAFAKER

2008-05-08T00:12:00.002+08:00

Gig on sunday was GREAT. supposedly the doors were to open at 2pm. but in the end it opened at 4pm. substation small ah. but good thing ah. cos there weren't many people attending it. mainly cos i suppose the secondary school students are enjoying their examination period. ha-ha. anyway, bands that performed were great. My Writes opened up the whole thing. sis friend zulazri's the bassist. he's good. but cannot lawan azam sallys uh. hahah. anyways, my writes, the pinholes, bittersweet(awesome IPOH band), drvn, the sallys, force vomit and the times were the favourite performances. though i didnt watch the times perform that much. overall, a great day and nite.

Monday, school started for the week. boring. school. boring. tuesday. school. boring. pool. gerek. just now. school. boring. pool. gerek. went to e-hub to play pool. saw sally there. working at the same place with jeff. supposedly, i'm going to see them often. cos its usually that area where we lepak. not all the time lah. but most. haha

ciao. salut!. and giulano my french teacher is italian. what the fuck. i think i blogged this before. ok.

deux zero zero sanq

2008-05-04T00:09:00.005+08:00

an old vid. 2005 was the year. parkour times. haha. compiled and edited as such. ended with a clip of us after raya-ing at hafsah's house.

sec 3 year. it was fun. when all we cared was us having fun and exploring new things. but now, people change..

enjoy the vid. hehe

2008-05-03T23:55:00.002+08:00

had nothing to do today initially. was rotting at home. but my uncle called. wanting me to help him with his new house. i jumped to the opportunity to not stone. so yeah. went to his house at siglap there to help. i like his house. fucking huge. i'll post i up if there is any pic of it. its a beauty from outside. and inside too. duh. hah. stayed there from afternoon till nite. watched the man utd - west ham match there as well. great that man utd won. a boo-boo cos nani got sent off. he's still a young player. tempers aren't controlled well yet i assume. but overall, a great match. the commentator was as gay shit as hell. saying how good-looking cristiano ronaldo is after he was subbed off. haha. funny world. gay commentators. gays. bleargh. lesbians. erghk. why do they exist. only to make straight jacks laugh at them? for fun? the thought of gays/lesbians gross me out. *pukes* on the bed. hahaha -.-

tomorrow. gig at substation. going with zul donkey and riding on wan gemok's car. hehehe. the sallys, bla bla bla. zul said cesspit will be performing. i think. oh wells. will see who performs tomorrow. but the best local bands will be up. till then.

iron man on wednesday!

towning

2008-05-03T01:18:00.003+08:00

attended my first french tutorial. fun. oui. it was fun. nyahah.
fucking giulano's from italy and he teaches us french. isn't that cool or what. i'll try learning portugese and teach others the language in times to come. ha-ha.

went to town after school with acap. met aidil and firzan near borders before going on a spree. hafeez joined later on for pool. yeah yeah. in total, 150 bucks was gone. in a space of half a day. yeah. i like. that one havent include cigarettes. heh. ate at mr teh tarik at nite with zin and acap and hamzah. the chicken fried rice is superb. only not spicy enough. haha. serious shit la. nice.

tomorrow, staying at home only. then watch man utd's match at 745pm.

salut!

to you, i(we) dun give a damn if you dun care about things that are going on. its ur life. and we will accept it if you dont want us to be part of urs.=) to you, get well soon.=)

nama aku musibat.

2008-05-01T00:16:00.002+08:00

for whatever reason, i'm called musibat. acap became musibot. ajit, bodoh. azip, bahalol. all this for no apparent reason. it just happened when the four of us chilled at pasir ris park just now. playing card games when bodoh called me musibat out of the blue. stupid shit. anyways, the fucking pool place is still closed. the reason why we headed to pasir ris park in the first place to chill.

good news. man utd WON. holy cunts. the devils are going to Moscow motherfuckers. woohoo. fucking happy. watching the boring liverpool chelsea match later. no team is preferred though. but man utd are through!!.. haha

aidil sent me this link. its fucking funny. about this certain 'ken lee' song. haha. bulgarian music idol. this contestant's doing a cover of mariah carey's 'without you'. but i suppose she took ken lee as the title cos the chorus first words are 'can't live'??? anyway, it is hilarious. i watched it over and over again, laughing my ass off. one word. hilarious. hahaha
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FQt-h753jHI&feature=related
enjoy!

ken lee~~~~~~~

poster girl

2008-04-29T21:35:00.001+08:00

still recovering from my illness. i want to quit smoking. i hope it'll happen. within this month. or i mean next month. since this month(april) ends tomorrow(s). heh. my aim la. serious shit.

past few days have been great. no need explain. except for just now. got a little twitch in our plan. planned to go to the new e-hub to play pool since its suppose to open at end of april. thinking that 29 april is acceptable enough to be considered as end of april, we went there. but to our dismay, it was still fucking closed. yeah fuck. and whats worse. looking through the glass, there are now only 8 fucking pool tables. not enough lah motherfuckers. head home after that la. oh ya. saw jeffrey or kah jun(if spelt correctly) working exactly outside the pool place. bla bla bla. and yessah! finally got the french song. thank you~~~

bye. school starts at 8 for us. but ends at motherfucking 1!. but i'm clueless of where to head after that since the rest ends late. -.-

mak kau bodoh

2008-04-27T23:25:00.003+08:00

things havent been looking good for my family. my mum is still worried about me being alone at anytime anywhere. dun worry. i'm alrite. parents are worried about my younger brother's PSLE. whole family is worried about my younger brother, who's suspected of getting diabetes at such a young age. sigh. things aren't looking good. there's only one belief. with patience and God's will, all will be fine. i'm so sure of that. not now, but later.

worked today. earned some money. not that much for me. but its ok la. did it with my own will. tiring. at least i'm doin something. and i'm happy with it. school's tomorrow. 9. lekshmi fuck taking the class. 2 hours of extra sleep for sure. zzz. haha.

salut!

day 2

2008-04-26T13:56:00.002+08:00

didn't follow aidil, firzan, ishak, darn, vishnu to sentosa today. suppose aimran's there also. sick. yeah. acap involved in orientation camp. azip working. seth having speed trials. ajit in no mood after failing prac 3 again. donkey and amir working. and i'm sick. if not the whole bunch of us will be there. wasted.

skipped french ytd. woke up late. supposedly i'll be getting 2 warning letters in the 1st week of school alrdeady. skipped maths tutorial on thurs. what to do. lazy.

hopefully i'll be going out later. to go town i suppose. i dont want to stay at home alone. just dont want to be alone lah in simple terms.

i'm starting to give up hope in everything. giving up hope in it, in being a friend. even in being an acquaintance. supposedly thats how its wanted to be done. its fine then. being ignored and hiding behind someones back. i'm coming to terms with this already. ever since the start of school. when it is said that there wont be any ignorance after the first day. after that post to be exact. and after what was said that nite, i'm still waiting. to see if what was said will be true. oh wells. so much for next time. it seems like things are becoming like how it used to be years ago. or worse than that time. there wasn't even an acknowledgement that time. yeap. i'm cool with that. XD

ciao.

sick

2008-04-25T23:56:00.002+08:00

having a bad flue and fever currently. flu all thanks to bloody donkey. fever all thanks to the bloody rain. didnt bring my sweater yesterday cos its still not dry from washing. should have just brought it along knowing that its still gonna get wet.

sis had her first prac just now. not bad i suppose. was there to see her. same goes for ajit. prac 3. he's good i should say.

need i say more. i wanna rest. but after naruto.

salut!

FRENCH

2008-04-24T22:58:00.003+08:00

amir turned gay during our first french kiss. OWH. Lecture. yea yea. he was saying how good looking jerome was. is, i mean. french is fun. for now. havent start the real deal yet. still playing around. the french song still in my head. but a while ago it was not. tomorrow's the first french tutorial. yada yada. luckily theres andrew to be my companion throughout the 2 hours of new language. at least for a sem.

anyway, amir the bonbon was as usual. as lame as he can be. he decided to name everyone of us in accordance to naruto. ha ha. as such;

amir - neji. he thinks he's cool.
me - sasuke. haha.
ajit - shikamaru. cos he's lazy.
acap - shino. quiet but nonsense.
avin - chouji. haha. which other characters suits him rite.
donk - the konohamaru friend who wears specs and whose nose is always full of mucus.
seth - naruto. cos of one wun be explained reason. heh.

been chilling a lot lately. without the need to go off early. great. wont miss anything. especially if amir the bonbon is there. haha. he's like the catalyst la. easily said. it just means it just wont get boring with him and his nonsense and bike around.hehe

an interesting thing happened between ajit and this one girl. haha. it was a good laugh. all of us had a good laugh. hilarious. no comments.

amir called a few moments ago. he asked me how to sing the french song's chorus. yea. i'm looking for the song. anw, back to amir. he asked me about the lyrics and the tune. how would i know sia. haha. and here's the lame part. i asked him," why would you want to know at this time sia?". amir,"aku nk nyanyi time aku berak ah". kimmak. merepek sial. hahaha. well, thats how lame amir can be. tsk. a waste that he's not in the same class already.

=))

2008-04-23T23:29:00.002+08:00

i got french. now my fridays are not free. fuck. but its ok. i'd rather go out than bore to death at home. even if its school. school's been good so far. finally able to catch up with amir just now. lepaked from 4 til 8 at BK. sumore with amir. then ajit and acap joined at 6. fun. talking about our pocket money from primary sch till poly was ermm.. memorable?.. haha.. amir as usual.. nonsense.. one of it was as such..
"ajit: amir, we all got around 50 cents as pocket money when in primary one. u get how much?
amir: my dad let me use my atm card already"
LAME madafaka.. but was funny over there when all were high.
haha. see. i just miss his nonsense in class already. why are you stupid la dey. failed 2. PSPS sumore. bodoh. haha

current track being played. Dimmu Borgir - RaabjÃ¸rn Speiler Draugheimens Skodde.
ahh.. what the hell that means i don't know. but the song surely is nice. haha. as in the music. rhythm. distortion. tone. bla3. ahh.. yess.. metal music..

my head looks big? damn. i must've been studying soooo hard. haha.

blah blah blah

2008-04-22T23:56:00.002+08:00

just came back from first religious lesson. i must say that parents are like kids also. the 'teacher' in front talks like lecturers in TP during lectures whereas the students(yes, us students) are just like typical students. which means.... the teacher talks. the students mind their own business. and sleep. i repeat. SLEEP. PARENTS SLEEP IN CLASS WHEN THE TEACHER IS EXPLAINING IN FRONT. hah hah. funny? no. not yet. they snore. YES. THEY FUCKING SNORE. esp the one sitting beside me. hahaha. i laughed my ass off but just didnt show him when he kept almost falling off his seat and then regaining his consciousness to try and sleep still again. hah hah. thats a good thing though. guess now parents DO understand why sometimes their sons and daughters say that they cant concentrate on their teachers' lectures.

fuck cunts. tmr is a lab day. followed by another lab day on thursday. cunts. 8-6 and 9-7 respectively. fuck. i'd rather watch naruto in the library. anw, applied to swap cds. from sociology to....jeng jeng jeng..french. cos understanding art is such a fucking hot cds that even acap's course advisor advised him to not drop that cds as its such a hot subject. ridiculuous. fuck ridiculuousness.

on a lighter note, avin and adonk took appealled as well. not really lar. avin got no cds. adonk want to change. so yeah. get the pic. i miss amir. how random.

ciao. need to motherfucking wake up at 6plus tomorrow to check the cds result. then head to school at 8.

p/s: riiiiiiiittteee.....

2008-04-21T22:30:00.003+08:00

Like I've said. as long as your happy, thats good. even if its laughing at me. and my assumptions. =)

school was a bore. no more amir. no more vish. for most of the lessons. those 2 stupid buggers retake 2 subs. fucking stupid lah matmo and mama. had freaking 4 hours of lab. waste of time. first lesson already had a quiz. did the quiz with half my mood gone. all i could remember was about the fire extinguisher. but its only the first day. friday no school beb! woohoo.

after school, followed acap cut his hair at istanbul. wait2. before that, while i was in the provision store buying cigarettes(my mum knows!hehe), they told me they saw you. oh well, i didnt realise. that explains why i seem to not care about it until they told me. if not i'll at least say hi. but i suppose you'd also just ignore. even if u realise. i guess. nvm. you happy. good. =). then lepak around dunman till nite. met anban. lepak2. but everyone was exhausted i suppose. around 9pm, ajit went to downtown watch movie. azip go home. acap go home to pee. donkey and dog and me also went home lah. Duh~~ with a capital D. amir. fuck you lah. i miss your nonsense already in class. haha

ciao!

reality

2008-04-21T01:24:00.002+08:00

Everything i heard seems true. all the best with him. =).

Sis still havent called. arghh.

and you are happy. as i see it. all the past are past. and i suppose you are ready for another relationship. i wish you all the best with him if all goes well. haniff isnt it. or anep for nick. ur one lucky guy. =). this is sincere from me. stay happy.

pissed

2008-04-21T01:03:00.001+08:00

fuck. been waiting for her to call. since 12 am. nabey. i want to sleep la fuck. waiting for you to come home. must fetch you sumore. fuck

BOSS

2008-04-20T23:40:00.004+08:00

Lepak at mr teh tarik. i became the boss. ajit and azip became my gina. acap and seth, well, becomes their ginas respectively. haha. last time sec 4 it as seth's union. now its mine uh i guess. haha.

Fuck lah they all. ever since i cut my hair they portray me as a matrep. lame sial. mafakers.

Tmr sch! at erm 12? or is it 1? either way, means no early monday mornings anymore. haha. no more kyaw htut. no more fucking burmese attitude. sorry fucker. u suck at teaching me.

Donkey called at around 730, telling me he may have seen you at his workplace, The Coffee Club raffles, with another guy. If its true, and you're happy, I'm happy for you. I know you're interested in someone the very next day after the break up. and thats good for you. and him. he'll be such a lucky guy. If its not true, as long as you're happy, I'd still be happy for you. and it has always been that way. =)

Sunday

2008-04-20T18:40:00.002+08:00

Came home 2 hours ago from

1. cousin's hse
2. accompanying donkey cut his hair
3. lepak

reached home.
clean the house store. i must say i did a good job. did the cleaning while listening to Crucifixion songs. heh. Vishnu's band for your info. who, are still waiting to perform in their first ever gig. hahahaha. long live trash metal bro. \m/

waiting for the dawn song(azan). then go out again and lepak with azip and others. reach home. prepare for school!! at 12. ahh.. timetable's great. i wanna change cds. from sociology to u-art. since both subs i know so far are on wednesdays. i'd just switch the subjects so i can be in the same class with acap. hopefully. and then try apply for another cds. i failed psychology in the 2nd sem. fuck cunts.

fear gripping you tearing you apart
tear it from, the depths of your soul
fear gripping you tearing you apart
tear it from, the depths of your soul

ahh.. the chorus from Crucifixion's Nightmare. Vishnu's voice. Steam chorus. hahaha. fuck you lah mama. hahaha

Blackburn 1 - 1 Manchester United

2008-04-20T02:11:00.001+08:00

damn. man utd's settled for a draw. but duh. its better then losing. haha. a win at chelsea and no more dropping points would see man utd be champions again. hehe.

off to sleep. excited for tomorrow. =)

2008-04-20T01:29:00.002+08:00

At the moment, Man Utd's a goal down to Blackburn. Fuck Cunts. arghh come on man..

am confused. car or bike license. which one to decide? i'm not so sure. at the moment, thinking of getting a bike license. while my sis is in the process of obtaining a car license. wait till she pass, then chip in for a Suzuki Swift.heh. while she's getting her license, get the bike license a.s.a.p and get a bike. then by the time both have transports, i'll use the car in the nites. cool plan or wad. hehe.

just now had relatives' wedding dinner. the relative was the groom. the bride, pretty, but the teeth totally gone uh. like, ermm, totally gone ah sia. haha. the food. not bad uh. the eclairs were rubbish. the others were best. ate a lot lot. never have i eaten that much for one meal since last friday. i'll get fatter. but not lazier for sure. climb's gone. so that means, mondays, tuesdays and thursdays are free. tuesday nites are gonna be spend studying religious stuff. at most lepak one or 2 days. fridays are empty. no school. hmm.. work? suppose so. and other free days. gym? yeah. great or wad. school starting soon. cant wait.. hehe

been trying hard to quit smoking. sorry mom. sorry dad. i smoke. i promise to quit ok. my lips sumore are super dry already. dont want to get cancer or wad. yucks. i still love myself man. i dont want to suffer in life physically. thats most important.

fuck. man utd's gonna lose. i hope not. fuck cunts.

2008-04-19T17:06:00.005+08:00

Well. i was being true to myself. and whatever i said was the truth. but if u see it as nonsense, its up to you. thats my thoughts but if u think of it differently, whatever that makes u happy. and i noe u are. ur wearing braces alrd. haha. and i nv regret what i told u when u told me ur gonna wear it. "u will stay pretty". stay happy. =)

this has been where we sat everytime at pasir ris park since 4 months ago. on the right side of the bench to be exact. which was why i always occupy that side. to hide it from you. its lame but yeah. it wasnt last time. wrote it when u went to the toilet. haha.

but i scrapped off the everlasting few days ago. of no use huh. yeah. i've let go of everything. all are now memories.

all the best. sorry. i wun be an irritant. takecare.

=)

2008-04-18T00:17:00.002+08:00

Woohoo!.. tomorrow getting pay!.. haha.. fucking happy can.
But its only a pathetic 50bux ah. But nvm, its the first pay i get which i can use. Last pay was used for chalet. what to do. haha

Sissie enrolled for car license. Next week's her first prac. i taught her a little bit about biting point. haha. cool pe.

Ajit failed prac 2. kimmak. bodoh sia ajit. yesterday he was so confident of prac 2. i suppose it was the easiest. changing lanes and blind spot and signal lights. pfft.. nvm, now that you look like a barbie, u can pass one lah.. haha

Today lepak. as usual. no more climb. no more passion lah easy said. at pasir ris. first with azip and ajit and acap. then join ajit peh budak pasir ris. haha. zul, kerul and alip. kekek. bobal konek. i drank coffee thats filled with cigarette butts and ashes. hahaha. stupid sia. but no one saw it. so i kept the yucky drink in my mouth. hold it there. went to somewhere not near them, step use phone, den throw it all out. but no one suspected. so, no one laughed at me. and that was good.

Me and azip taught ajit to play the guitar. not bad ah. he can play fade to black, nothing else matters(both intros only) and a couple of songs. he is good. but gets nervous easily. maybe thats why he failed his prac 'countless' times. Ajit, if amir knows u fail prac 2, i think he's just going to laugh non-stop at you.

OK. back to naruto...

No loss for me. They will always be there

2008-04-17T02:37:00.008+08:00

Lepak

2008-04-17T02:20:00.003+08:00

Today, had a lepak day. Haha. Donkey came over. but i was preparing to go out. so just asked him to wait outside while i got myself ready in ard 15-20 mins. hahahaha. met dog and slacked at coffee bean. talked nonsense stuff. fun. aidil and firzan met us there. aidil was shocked at what happened to me. but vishnu's reaction was worse. anw, we just lepak. chill. and it started to drizzle. 3 of firzan's friends came along. then go play DAYTONA~~~~. haha. came back to slack at coffee bean. they were talking about clubbing and grinding girls. =(. oh wells. i have to expect such talks from guys. but not the right time i suppose. i started to get down. and for the rest of the nite, i felt lousy again. sigh. but i tried putting on a brave front. went to downtown to play pool with ajit and acap. i was quite on form i suppose. haha. kene gesek dagu ah jit. but ajit was super quiet. weird. esp when he faced me. dunno what was going through his mind. lepak at pondok near hai sing. and went home by 11.

i've always thought about this. if i lose you, i'll never get anyone prettier than you. sigh. slowly but surely, i'm getting over you.

2008-04-16T16:11:00.002+08:00

Now, i can be realistic in having successful band(s) again. haha. cos now i have all the time in the world to make metal music, enjoy metal music, feel metal music, rape metal music. Metal music has always been there for me. and will always be there. Rock on Metalheadz.

The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus - Your Guardian Angel

2008-04-16T16:03:00.001+08:00

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

past.

2008-04-13T01:20:00.003+08:00

After this ordeal happened, i read my archives. and i read it with a smile. it was not a waste. never was.

"become a new person.Why would I think of something like this?Being with a lovable partner made me realise that I have to be selfless. Not only to her, but also to others. Its when others comes before you and your actions are done based on what you think is the best for them. I mean, last time was always "me, me, me".. But I guess, things changed. " (u were my top priority heather)

"To think back about it, I just could not express how grateful I am to get that opportunity to be with her and what more, it has been that way all these while for the past 9 months plus" (and it never changed)

"And rushed back to East Side to meet baby. But communication broke down, and it took quite a while till we met. Things happened. But forget it. Seeing her is the best thing to have. And what more can I ask for other than to spend the rest of the night with her."

"Today was so far the worst day. Not meeting baby till next monday. sigh. A day seems like a month. Piang. See how if I can tahan without my nitrogen" (lol, nitrogen was cute)

"So in the end that day indeed was one great day.. heh.. it was really meant to be a happy day i gez.. greatness.. Enjoyed the rest of the day with my great friends.. ohhh... it was juz great.." (cos it was the nite we got together)

"d rest were homebound while i met LT after she finished work.. met at Bedok mrt station's bus stop..she looked damn exhausted.. so took 9 to simei n sent her home.. den, i ciao back home..late ready.. reached home got scoldings from mum.. so expeced..even d one week ban from gg out was predictable.. " ( it was worth it. it was for u)

"to my special friend, lee teng, ur really special..hah.. tho we're still knowing more of each other, i'm cherishing every moment spent with u everytime since promnite..=).. " (i did)

"Well.. apparently she's not back yet.. haiz.. n I'm going off to KL in d morning at 6am"

"so here I am.. feeling better n talking again.. haf to sae i miss her alot.. but hell yea!!.. she's coming back tmr!!!.. " (must i tell u i was super excited to receive ur msg and i didnt sleep? haha)

"haiz.. itz only 2 daes.. wad else.. 2 weeks?.. well..at least she's having fun..=)"

"N yea.. Prom nite was held at Le Meridien Singapore.. Glitz n glam was d theme.. I noe dis story is like sooo expired but like others, I had fun.. every second was memorable.. i had a memorable time dere with umm.. leeteng.. n boy, she looked great.. the rest, no need to tell uh.. haha.. miss dat nite.. really.."

"enjoyed sum moments with her before she's off to china for a week n I'm going off to KL a week later.. so 2 wks of not hearing from her.. sigh.. so let dis 2 wks pass n i'll be much more happier den.. =)" ( even before we got together, i alrd feel the loss when ur not there for me. what else now)

just some of the things. its just a pity its all over.

end

2008-04-13T00:59:00.003+08:00

9 2 07 - i got into a relationship with u

9 3 07 - it was our first month together

9 4 07 - 2nd month together, i gave u a perfume. U called me sayang. Heh

9 5 07 - i believe we had our 1st kiss. Heh. (I can still re-enact it to you. hahaha)

9 6 07 - 4th month since feb

9 7 07 - i shocked with u with my artpiece, the ambigram, on the day u worked till late for sch

9 8 07 - half-year period. went to sentosa for cablecar. 1 of those fav nites.

9 9 07 - the nite when u told me u wanna hate me cos ur mum nearly found out. but it never occurred. u called me baby. heh

9 10 07 - 8 months. Ur sweet msg is still with me. Watched res evil tgthr. We just love it dun we.

9 11 07 - we're madly in love around now. meeting everyday. =)

9 12 07 - 10 months. u worked at nite at the marathon and i missed u badly.

9 1 08 - the 1st time we didnt meet on our monthlyversary. met the next day. (it was because u had dinner with ur fam after work heather. no need to feel bad ok? =))

9 2 08 - anniversary. I screwed it up. ( see, ur not at fault. ur not a jerk heather)

9 3 08 - 2nd time we didnt meet on such day. Met up days later. ( It was because I had to go to the mosque remember. But we just couldnt make up for it)

9 4 08 - 14 months. U didn't remember. Last time we changed " i love u's ". Chalet nite. ( I shouldnt have gotten wasted. Instead I should just have spent time with you. If only I know u'd go out got the next 2 nites. and u'd come up with ur decision the next day. I totally regret it heather. i do)

10 april 08 - our love was never meant to blossom further

well, the above was exactly the text msg i gave her when i realised theres no chance to make her return to me. except for the ones in the brackets which states how i feel, its similar to the one i passed her.

I'm feeling fucked up thanks to you. But as you can see, it all comes down to one thing. It was my fault. i fucked up those nonsense monthlyversaries even though you dont have anything in mind to do. In simple terms, i was the one planning all of this. But i did it with all my heart, just to savour our relationship. It just disappoints me that u cant see it. maybe u havent been dumped before. and thats why u seem so emotionless. the actual fact is, it hurts badly. i was too weak. i couldnt dump u when i feel i should.

but theres always a special spot in my heart for you. just for you heather. just for you.

Break up

2008-04-13T00:18:00.007+08:00

After 14 months of love and 17 of happiness, we broke up due to uncited reasons.
She wanted it to happen, and i supposed she suffered earlier than me, but not to the extent of getting hurt as much.
No, you are not a jerk.
You just wanted the best for you and i respect that fully.
It hurts me so much but this is reality.
Thats what my mom told me.
But to me, I just feel useless.
And it just seems that I AM A FAILURE.
After you became comfortable with somebody else, it just started to fall on me.
I feel negleted.
I was in pain.
But i let you have it your way cos I Love You and I didn't want you to have any hatred towards me just because i didn't allow any freedom for you.
I let myself get hurt when you wanted to do things i personally dont allow.
But its because i want you to be happy.
And that was why i allowed you.
And its because I love you for who you are.
But not what you do.
And it will always go on that way.
U even fought with me about it.
But I let you have it your way just to make you happy about it.
I did my best to save our relationship heather.
But I guess feelings change yeah.
My mom told me to take it as a 'cinta monyet' or i suppose, just a not serious relationship. However, I just cannot come to terms with that.
It was my first ever relationship.
And it was a serious one.
Ur sweet msgs were the ones that brought my mood up when I'm down with you.
But all those are now just plain memories.
I dont want this to end.
But I just have to respect your decision.
Just as how I've respected you since the first time I went out with you during prom.
And that respect is still the one priority i keep whenever Im with you.
Just in case in the future, some other guy falls for you and vice versa, but treats you like shit and didn't respect you, I'll be there. To give that guy hell.
And as for now, Im trying hard to move on.
But I'll be honest.
I'm still putting hope that we'll get together again.
And that time, it will go on all the way.
As for now, I'll just wait.
Wait for you.
Even if you had been countless number of guys after me.
As long as I feel you are worth it, I will keep to my stand.
Just like how you don't want to turn back on your decision. I'll be honest.
I still have feelings for you.
And i'll always and will still be here for you Heather.
I'm just not ready for another relationship.
Even though if it means I'm going to be a lonely person.
Nothing in this world can replace that happiness I had with you.

You are worth 17 months of my life.
And I'll always look at it with a wide smile.
Thank You Heather, for being the best I could have ever asked for.
And I'm ready to be ur best companion friend whenever u need one.
I won't take it as though you are using me.
Its because I just want you to be happy.
Even if I'm not with you.

It was the first. But was the best night I had. You were just beautiful.

And you will always stay beautiful to me. Both inside and out. Even now.

Love,

Afiz, GumGum, zxixf, shaf, oxygen, Duffy.

CYCLING

2007-12-19T01:40:00.000+08:00

OK.. Today I didn't go cycling with them. Sort of sick just now.. Missed the opportunity. Planned to cycle form Pasir Ris Park to East Coast Park via the connector that just opened. Interesting huh. But I got better as time goes by.. Anyway, AS THOUGH my parents allow me to participate in such outings. Even when there is chalet, I am not able to ton(come on, its a safe place, sheltered and stuff). What else an outing where there's no safe shelter and bla3.. -_-"..

Today was so far the worst day. Not meeting baby till next monday. sigh. A day seems like a month. Piang. See how if I can tahan without my nitrogen. hah. Yah. fell sick during climb, which i didn't even take part in.. zzz

LAzy la..
Ciao.

HAPPY 10 MONTHS!

2007-12-14T01:12:00.000+08:00

Baby and I went out today. To celebrate our 1oth monthlyversary. It went super well can. Met baby after prayers timing+2hrs. haha. She looked superb on that day. I was practically blushing everytime I face her. hehe. Pretty Peacock la.. =))..

I brought her to Beach Road. To taste the best Mee Soto EVA!!! Muahaha.. Trust me. Its nice. I bet heather's in love with it as well.. haha.. confirm la.. AND SURPRISINGLY, FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, SHE FINISHED HER FOOD FASTER THAN ME.. hahahah.. sorry heather.. promised you I'd put that phrase.. hehe

And then both of us walked to Bugis Junction. Watched a movie. The Golden Compass to be exact. Hell of a great movie. Next movie to watch is definitely National Treasure's sequel. Followed by, Jumper?.. heh..

To sum it up, I had a great day with Heather. A super great one. A payback day cos on the 9th we were both busy studying for our term tests.. haha..

Till then,
Afiz got to go.
Before I go, below are pictures from today.
And I love Heather Ng Lee Teng. peace YAW.

2007-12-14T01:05:00.000+08:00

M702 day out

2007-12-13T06:03:00.000+08:00

Been planning to go shisha with my classmates for quite sometime. And it happened on today. Our last term test paper. Hell yeah it was a good feeling after handing in the paper. Though i feel that I'd fail it. Heh. EMath 2 went fine, EDVCKT and DFUND2 and SSMAT were fucking easy.. for me to fail.. BULLSHIT

Anyway, the whole lot of us; Me, Vishnu, Zul, Amir, Raymond, Matthew, Jeremy, Yong Gang and his twin brother Yong Long, met at Haji Lane at around 5. Donkey, after seeing heather's pics with her friends taken at Haji Lane, was tempted to take a few shots there. Oh well, it didn't happen. HAHA. Then proceeded to have our dinner at somewhere near the Sultan Mosque. To be exact, below Ambrosia there lah. All that happened for a timespan of an hour. Then we proceeded to Al- Majlis to shisha. But only 18year-olds are allowed there. Me, vish, zul and raymond, all being 17, were not allowed to even sit on their motherfucking comfortable sofas. FUCK. So we went to the shop across the road. And thats when shisha-ing starts. woohoo.. In the end, only me, vish, zul, mir, matt and raymond smoked. Btw, applemint fucking nice siol. hehe. Smoked for 2 hours. or less. And rushed back to East Side to meet baby. But communication broke down, and it took quite a while till we met. Things happened. But forget it. Seeing her is the best thing to have. And what more can I ask for other than to spend the rest of the night with her. Hehe. Pics are next.

2007-12-13T01:04:00.000+08:00

2007-12-11T01:20:00.000+08:00

Amir wants me to write a new post.. But it'll have no effects on you lar deng. I won't talk about you.. haha..

Anyway, serious stuff now.. After 10 months of being in a relationship, I learned a lot of things. Yeah. Pros and Cons.. just a bit of it..

CONS, are easy said.
It's just that
you wont enjoy what a single being does.
you have to plan carefully on your expenses and stuff.
your friends may think you're a full time nonok-kia.
you have lesser private time.

PROS, to me, are as such.
YOU
have someone special to talk to in case there is a prob.
have this sense of belonging to your partner.
have what some friends of yours don't have; partner.
develop new understanding with other people.
become a new person.

become a new person.
Why would I think of something like this?
Being with a lovable partner made me realise that I have to be selfless. Not only to her, but also to others. Its when others comes before you and your actions are done based on what you think is the best for them. I mean, last time was always "me, me, me".. But I guess, things changed. I'm not saying that it happens all the time la.. Most of the time. blablabla.

Oh well.. seems like I'm starting to have no mood to type more. Term test week and tomorrow's my EDVCKT paper. I don't know why i typed the above matter.. But I just felt it's something to share with you people.

To Heather, happy 10 months!...

A year after Pom Nite 2006

2007-11-28T23:58:00.001+08:00

Exactly a year ago.. I believed the whole lot of us just left Le Meridien Hotel.. After Prom Night. What else.. That day, 2 significant things happened. And it'll always be on my mind. First, in case you people don't know, it was the first time me and Heather actually 'meet' each other.. To think back about it, I just could not express how grateful I am to get that opportunity to be with her and what more, it has been that way all these while for the past 9 months plus. And it all happened just by the act of asking that one question which I find is the reason why we are together. The other incident was obviously with my brothers.. One HELL of an incident that shows how close we are even though they are obvious bickering among us at some point of time. Memories I'll cherish. To Ajit, Azip, Acap, Seth and Khai, you guys are just one of the greatest things I have in this world. And Heather, the feeling's not changed.=)

Today I had DFUND test. I sucked at it.period. bla3. lepak with Aidil's members; Darny, Aim and Firzan(spell btol ak?) and of course donkey, dog acap and amir. Gerek siot. But lagi gerek was when the day was ended with H eat her.. hah!..

I wanna sing "She's Gone" by Steelheart.. just like how heather sang it.. hahahaha

TGIF

2007-11-24T02:00:00.000+08:00

TGIF stands for taik.gigi.itam.fuck!.. wahahaha.. STUPID fucks who believes that deserve to rot in blablabla... thank god its friday lar dengs.. but if u add a 'night' at the end, it seems better..

As always, fridays sucks cos i have to go through a fucking pathetic lesson.. no la.. its actually the fucking teacher.. seeing her face makes my eyes puke.listening to her lame jokes makes my ears puke.sitting beside her makes my nose puke. anw.."JOKE OF THE DAY"..hehe.. my stupid classmate amir wanted to try out a pair of rollerblades our classmate brought. being stupid, he tried it out in class while waiting the pukemaker mark our attendance.so blablabla.. then out of a sudden, amir fell to the floor, clutching his stupid leg and was sort of screaming,"cramp! cramp!".. with his stupid 'r' pronounced as 'aghh'.. with his stupid face in somewhat agony, we all LAUGHED OUR ASS OFF LA SIA.. ok.. done.. if u dun find it funny, then i guess u buy this notebook named 'notebook', where there are jokes in it.. i find it cute.. seriously.=).. anyway, I screwed my PSPS presentation.. who cares.. she makes me puke.. If only i could puke at her..

Then go CLIMB!!!!! CLIMBING is one hell of an activity i fucking love.. hehe.. had a super fun leisure climb.. though i did not complete any routes due to my heavy mass.. yala yala.. anw, then celebrated jo megan's birthday.. and being kids at heart, me and ajit carried out the standard procedure for birthday people.. throwing cakes onto the faces.. fun sia.. The face somehow looked like as though its full of faeces.. but tell u ppl.. chocolate cakes on t-shirts smell like vomit. yup.. And then, when to prata paradise to lepak and eat.. I only drank.. Me and ajit became our usual selves in fron of Izz and Haikal.. our sarcasm, ok la ajit more sarcastic, made them unable to talk back and in the end, they had to be careful whenever they talked to us..wakaka.. Went home ard 11++pm..

And that summarises my day.. everything was great except for the morning part and didn't meet my baby today.. oh wells, there's always tomorrow.. cheer up! =))

CLIMBING is one hell of an activity i fucking love.
Heather is LOVE.. heh heh..

Sounds cheesy ryte.. i know u know.. and sorry for the sudden rise of vulgarities.. I couldn't find a suitable word to replace it even with a dictionary next to me..

CIAO

Mood swings?

2007-11-23T15:32:00.000+08:00

Woke up to feel somehow a bit different today.. Have been moody throughout the day so far.. No exact reason why.. random mood swing i suppose.. Had a screwed up presentation for PSPS.. fuck..

Going leisure climb in a while.. Hopefully it'll turn out great and i'll be able to finish at least some routes.. And hopefully ending the day off with heather.. haiz..

FUCK
FUCK
FUCK

a useless post..

anw, birthday wishes to seri n TPSC's jo megan..
ciao

I QUIT!

2007-11-18T03:19:00.000+08:00

I'v quit smoking for good.. Not going to lose 5 or 10+ bux for a packet of harmful sticks.. which means I can save more money.. HA HA..

I lazy to update larh.. Just for fun only this post..

Anw, congratulations to my cousin whom I call KAK YATI or called KAKAK ATI, who got married on the 17th of Nov 2007. May your marriage be blessed with all the blessings God can give.. My family will be attending the wedding dinner at fort canning park later.. so.. BYE for now.. I want to sleep..

Climbing just makes me happy..

But Heather makes me super happy.. hehe..

Stoned

2007-10-18T13:03:00.000+08:00

Hey.. First of all, I'd like to wish all muslims out there, Selamat Hari Raya AidilFitri.. One month of fasting ends on Friday night. And the celebration begins for a period of one month from 13th October onwards.. Wasn't in much mood to celebrate it though.. But since its a special day, or what most people call it 'a day of triumph', I just tried my best to celebrate it like how I used to all these years.. In the end, it turned out pretty well..

I've been stoning at home since Monday, the last day I went out for visiting.. Other than that, I've only gone climbing at Yishun Safra.. details of it at seth's blog.. So I'm in a mood of, err, simple talking, moodless.. yeah.. Want to go climb today also lazy.. Sometimes I feel its like as though climbers have no life.. All we do is climb climb climb.. While my other friends are enjoying themselves out there.. either working( i take it as though it is enjoyable, especially when the pay day comes, right heather? ) or going out and lepak.. haha.. I should be working this holiday.. But the trainings and all made me think twice about working.. In the end, I didn't work but go climbing instead.. So now I guess, I'm gonna work at Canadian Pizza outlet near my old house on weekends.. thats where Aidil used to work.. I mean, he just stopped working there yesterday.. I hope la its gonna work for me..

I'm still deciding whether to go training today.. K la, maybe cos I'm feeling a bit lazy.. But its also cos there's no one to take care of my little brother when I'm away at school.. My sis' coming home late from school, mum's coming home at 5 whereas my training starts at 4.. hmm..

Checked my new time-table.. Got my CDS subject.. I got psychology.. WOW.. ok la.. i hope my sis gonna help me. cos I HEARD she took psychology for her cds as well during her time in TP.. Donkey and Amir got the same cds subject as me.. but they lagi best.. got into the same class.. haha.. mafuckers.. vishnu aka beast got into public speaking.. haha.. sadly, the 4 of us who applied for water technology didn't get in it TOGETHER.. acap got MOE, seth got i dunno.. ajit got into water tech. but what's the use, all of us didn't get into it.. Heather got french as her cds sub.. thats what she wants.. Hopefully her friends who applied together with her got it as well.. As for me, I'm gonna make new friends.. yep.. haha.. YA, my timetable sucks BIG time.. just fuck it.. Aidil's timetable is just so different from ours.. oh wells.. so Im like really gonna go home late this new semester.. plus climb, I bet it'll be not late but later.. haiz.. But nevermind.. For aerospace electives.. I'll do it man.. and to become a great climber.. I'll just go on with this lifeless life..

Oh and before i forget, I'd like to send my condolence(s) to ajit's family.. He's gonna miss his dearly grandfather.. God bless his soul.. If what he told me in the morning was all true la.. haha.. ok..

<3 Heather.

Another Training Day..

2007-10-04T16:04:00.000+08:00

Thursday.. another climb training.. at this moment of time, I'm in no mood to go for training.. 1st reason mainly due to the fact that I'm fasting.. 2nd, school wall is closed down to make way for a new one. I just wanna train my speed climb for now.. and there's just no wall to climb up.. 3rd, for today, training is focused on the PT part.. fasting makes me sick of PT.. cos I cant drink after even doin sets of warm ups.. what else kene lari kat stadium.. leh batal sia puase..kua kua kua.. Nah, don't think I'm going to go training today..

Aniway, yesterday turned out pretty well.. All of us (me, heather, ajit, acap, azip, khai, seth, seri, vish and zul donkey) met up at downtown east to break our fast.. And ya, coincidentally, all of us were wearing at least something black.. haha.. The day started out quite slowly uh cos everyone fasting.. after break fast aje, the fun start.. oh ya, mind u.. we were celebrating Azip's 17th bdae.. yea.. the Toncak gang.. Had fun lar.. After long time the whole load of us, especially the dunman ppl, never sit-sit together.. After break fast, played pool and then went to Pasir Ris Park.. played 'steal'.. great game.. Then had donuts which Heather bought from donuts factory.. nice.. thank you babe.. And it ended of with us taking nonsensical photos.. can be viewed at Heather's join-blog.. haha..

One more thing.. after so long not meeting vishnu, I finally met him yesterday.. he looks like the beast character from X-Men siol.. Haha.. Seth lagi best.. "Eh, u fought with Pyro ah?".. kua kua kua.. Dat explains why our beast is black or to be less insulting, dark in colour.. heh

A New Day, Same Life

2007-10-03T14:14:00.000+08:00

First of all, I'd like to congratulate Heather for passing her supp. paper. Good job. I'm happy for both of her. It proves that if u are smart, u stay smart.. -.- . On the other note, chill bro.. next sem just do your best ah.. asl jangan dropout da cukop bagus..

Currently waiting for seth's call/msg to get me out of the house. Meeting him and probably zul donkey near my house before going to acap's house to sit-sit/maen FIFA07.. wakaka.. And then around 6pm, going to meet the Toncak gang to break fast/celebrate azip's birthday at Downtown East. Vishi is coming.. God, it has been ages since I last saw that dog of mine.. That time climbing camp also I didn't manage to find him in school. HAH!. kurang ajar.. tkpe ah.. aku suke.. OK back to the plan.. Atmost after we all makan then we're going to chill-chill at pasir ris park or play pool or makan.. It depends ah.. If it turns out that none of us have great plans, we'll just play rockets i guess.. Talking of which it HAS been a very long time since I last played that.. Right heather?. wakaka.

Apparently seth baru habes mandi.. so i assume we're going to meet around 3PM.. near my house.. EH YA.. talking about my house, I've moved.. like on 30th?31th? August.. simple talking, 1 day before 1st September.. Happy with it.. No need go through details ah.. Cos I lazy and lucky for me, not many people come here to read my shits.. HAHA.. alritey.. nk siap-siap utk buke ah.. kua kua kua..

Heather learned something new.. A Phillipine(is that how u spell it) phrase.. it says 'mahal kita'.. haha.. if ur malay u noe what it means.. 'expensive us'.. the meaning?.. find it yourself.. pfft!

Happy 17th Birthday Azip. and a short post

2007-10-02T16:34:00.000+08:00

Yea.. the title says it all.. All the best in your life bro.. dgn harapan persahabatan kiter akan berpanjangan.. amin..

Heather wants me to relive my blog.. She was like, "please relive ur blog".. bleah.. I'm trying my best la.. since its the hols and fasting month, there's nothing much to do except for staring at this 19 inch monitor and play games.. what's worse is that my PC currently has no speakers.. So its double boos cos i can't listen to songs while fucking this shit up.. There's supposedly to be training yesterday and today.. Yesterday was too last minute and I already promised heather to go out with her.. So to hell with yesterday's training.. And today, the team's going to Yishun Safra for training.. Speed training apparently.. For NISCC la.. I'm so not going cos the main reason is that I have no money.. yea.. no money to pay for the entry to use the wall.. Actually have money lar.. but if i use that money for training, then i think i'll juz break fast drinking water from the nearest reservoir or just pluck the leaves and eat them beside the monkeys at Yishun Safra.. oh wells..

And one more thing, heather drew her impersonation of her current display pic on MSN.. its in cartoon/stick figure form ah.. but I'd give her 9.5/10 cos she didn't make my glasses clear enough in her drawing..hehe

From This..

To this..

Update

2007-06-17T22:10:00.000+08:00

I am lazy to update.. hah.. so this is like once in a while
OK.. so, new skin.. but same attitude.. lazzziness

Well..TP's great I have to say.. Classmates rock big time.. The pariah-dog botak metalhead Vishnu, The chill but giler Amir, Indie-rocker donkey Zul and The abang da blah NS perangai masey budak kecik Aidil.. n oso the rest lar.. all are fun people.. good thing lar I have u all as my classmates for the next 3 years in TP..yea man..M702 rock.. muahaha..

Went JOGGING for the first time juz now with khai.. sial ah.. i ran/jog for 2.6km without stopping.. good enough lar..for some lazy pig like me.. oh wells.. trying to make this a weekly habit..

Nothing to blog about..ya..i did something stupid..go read khai's blog.. and haf a good laugh abt it.. oryte lar.. ciaoz

NEW URL

2007-06-13T02:32:00.000+08:00

Well well... changed the URL.. to prevent my sibs n other family members from getting links to blogs of well..my friends.. but dat doesnt mean i'll update dis nonsensical-shit frequently.. i cant lah..not in my blood..haaahaaa..zzz..kk ciaoz..
I ROCK

Happy belated birthday Ajit!

2007-04-03T01:39:00.000+08:00

Happy Belated 17th Birthday Ajit!.. i totally forgot his birthday ytd.. haha.. bad sia.. well well, all d bez in ur life bro..

Anw, as usual, nothin much happened todae.. haha.. actually, my point of blogging is to wish ajit's birthday.. wakaka.. well, dats all i gez.. n wait ya'll for my next post wic will be within.. a month? Let's hope not arh..ciaoz

N yea, Mechatronics arent for retards..=)

Monthly Update??

2007-03-30T11:28:00.000+08:00

Its the last dae of the month n here's my update.. As usual, nothing much has been happening.. Of course la not everydae is a bore..some daes are just special i guess..

Been lazing through the days n doin nothin much xcept for lazing around, slacking, lepaking, eating, sleeping and other stuffs dat contributes to the concept of being LIKE a pig.. daymn.. I'm even too lazy to go out for a jog or wad.. although the park is just in front of my block.. roy even called me 'garfield'..wth.. n fucking hell.. i shrinked mann.. seemed like i became 2cm shorter..fuck.. maybe its cos i'm carrying weights during my super free time..('super' cos I'm free everytime..heh).. Go gym oso lazy.. i can only depend on my dumbells at home.. pathetic ryte..

Haiya.. i cant stand the adult fare we pending students are using.. cant the govt wait till like we're totally not schooling dennnn they let us use the adult fare..okok..totally not schooling seems ridiculuous..maybe after poly? jc students different story lah.. students in uniforms.. wad other image can they portray.. i mean.. its fucking irritating when u top-up 10bux into ur card n within 5 fucking daes, itz all gone.. ok la.. maybe hypocrites will ask y i'd go out for 5 daes n use my ez link card alwaes.. well, look it in another way..wrking students? as in part-time wrkers who are students.. (wrking at centrepoint, living at tampines)etc..daymn.. wad..dat means topping up d ez link card like every 5 daes?..mann.. d govt cannot wait to take our money arh..cheh.. well..its one issue i am totally against at..

Oh n btw, I've turned 17..haha.. thk u to all dat has wished me n a special thank u to my dearest leeteng for giving me the ferst present..haha..thx lots everyone.=) eh, n leeteng turned 17 too..haha.. well, earlier den me..sheesh..haha.. =).. anban just turned 17..happy birthdae to u dude.. too bad i cant join ur celebration tmr at sentosa..haf sumtin on..hmm..who else's birthdae falls on march hur...hmmmm.....

There is a HUGE doubt abt d chalet dat has been planned since the last few weeks..dun tink there will be a chalet afterall.. admin problems..i hate this shit..fuck d chalet for changing its payment system... n so dis is sumhow an apology to everyone who has been hoping that things will turn out well for d chalet.. sorry yea if it totally wun work..

School is strting soon..n holy shit.. the feeling after handing in the enrolment shit forms at TP was like as though one heavy burden liftedoff my chest.. fuck yea..it was soooo lecey n lecey n more lecey sials... ley mati pikerkn sal itu form2 sumer.. but anw, its over.. n yea.. i got into Mechatronics..hopefully I'd get into the Aerospace option by the end of semester 1 or 2..well..dats my goal for this year.. oter den dat..i'm sumhow eagerly waiting for sch to strt..wahaha..

Ntg else to blog..wait for my next monthly post har..if dere will be..hah..ciaoz..

3rd sleepless nite

2007-02-26T04:25:00.000+08:00

3rd sleepless nite.. but not tired.. haiz..
Going town later.. wid acap, khaii n mabbe ajit.. buying a top..n slack.. yea.. Waiting for farhi's reply regarding work..haiz..faster leh.cant stand it at home..

Update?

2007-02-15T12:25:00.000+08:00

Today is Total defence day and the siren juz went out approximately half n hr ago..i gez my bro's eating the bread provided by his sch for recess.. lazy

2007-02-15T02:39:00.000+08:00

Ishh..nk update jek..tapi malas siak.. hebat

2007-02-14T05:49:00.000+08:00

Well..hello again.. Sorry for the lack of updates.. so lazy to do so.. anw, some stuff to share here.. O level results were released on friday, 9th of feb 2007.. it turned out to be one hell of a fun day.. well, here goes.. Woke up at 11am to be greeted by messages sent by khaii n seth regarding on where n when we're gonna meet for prayers that day.. apparently, i was quite slow to realise that it was results day that day.. until seth mentioned that he was going to school first to do some admin stuff.. n dennnnn did i realise that it was the day I've been quite waiting for.. I mean, of course lah afraid but how much longer is that wait suppose to end.. i was quite relieved that it was results day despite the persistent "Siallah..takot sak aku" by ajit a day or 2 before 9th of feb.. well well.. so went to prayers and bla3.. did lots of prayers.. wished 'all the best' to my friends n relatives who's taking their results too on that day.. Anw, khaii told me that sumhow he knew from his friends that the results for our batch was better than the previous batch..so that made me felt much better though.. Reached sch at ard 230pm.. waited outside for some time before heading in at 245pm.. Mrs Neo was giving her usual talks which I've not heard for quite some time.. damn.. I miss those days.. so time passed quite slowly.. i started to get afraid when the results were being given out slowly.. I was trembling upon receiving my results slip.. mrs sundar and mdm fadilah were smiling widely.. i gez dey were happy with all the results.. cool.. haiyo.. nk bukak envelope pon tangan menggigil siak.. haha.. okok.. so this is my result

eng - b3
emath - a1
combined science - a2
combined humans - c5
english literature -c5
malay -b3
amath -b3

L1R4- 12
L1R5- 17
CCa- a1

i gez wen i saw my results, i was too happy to do anything except for jump for joy by pushing khaii.. haha.. mann.. wad a day to remember.. i mean.. siallah.. never have i passed amath n humans in sec 4 and i got these for my results.. damn happy lar.. serious.. haiyo.. lazy ah wanna talk further.. i juz wanna congratulate everyone who did well for their O's, especially my friends.. u noe who u are... and also gd luck to everyone in years to come..

So in the end that day indeed was one great day.. heh.. it was really meant to be a happy day i gez.. greatness.. Enjoyed the rest of the day with my great friends.. ohhh... it was juz great..

2007-01-29T15:53:00.000+08:00

Glory-glory Lions.. Singapore 1-1 Malaysia was the final score after 120mins of play at the National Stadium.. which results to penalty-shootout.. Singapore won lah.. 5-4 was d shootout score.. And the Lions are through to meet the Thais in the final match.. Gonna watch the first leg of the final this wed again at the National Stadium.. This time, hopefully with more of thegrat bunch n other friends.. It'll be the last competitive match the Lions are playing at the stadium.. Yeah.. the final again.. Kudos to the squad.. they played much better than the first leg of the semi-final.. Went there ytd with acap n seth..khaii joined us at extra-time..ajit and azip weren't with us.. but it was great tho.. the atmosphere was at its best.. Every great play by the Singapore team was greeted with cheers while the malaysians?? jeers.. wakaka.. the chant of the classic "BUTO!!" from the 2004/2005 final match with Indonesia was still alive(wakaka!!)..itz much better for me n seth ytd cos we got d chance to jeer along with the others unlike 2 yrs ago when we attended the match with our own families/relatives( sedih kn)..so yep, no vulgarities dat tyme.. k la.. as a whole, it was one great nite.. after the match ended, proceeded to McDonalds n had a light dinner(at 11.15pm).. bla3 and we went back home by bus instead of the planned MRT journey home all thanks to our mr smartass muhd seth.. everyone thot he was leading us to the MRT station but he brought us to this busstop that was near his granny's hse.. i dun care much cos I'm takin the same bus home but khaii n acap were like..hmm..dunno how to describe their expression lar..haha.. acap wanted us to ton with him since he cant have a straight bus home.. even if he reached pasir ris interchange, there'd be no bus to reach his home.. but in the end, from the busstop we took at seth's granny's place, took 12 to pasir ris..or was it chinatown.. WAKAKAKA!!!..we took the bus at the other side of the road dat was heading to chinatown siao!!.. n luckily khaii's ezlink was valueless so he had to ask the driver how much the fare to simei was.. n yep, u guys surely would noe wads d outcome.. so i went to d 2nd deck of the bus, seth was waiting for us to go up while acap siang2 da dudok.. told them where the bus was heading n all of us alighted at the next stop, laughing all the way across the bridge to take bus 12 to PASIR RIS MANN!!.. haha. so reached home atabt 130am.. n watched the Man U match against pompey.. 2-1 was the score in the Reds' favour.. n slept at abt.. 5?? yep..

So juz now, woke up at 2pm and its back to basics for me...stoning at home.. but watched PrisonBreak season 2.. everyone's watchin it n hell yea..its such a great show with lots of surprises.. I'm at ep 14 now..so ciaoz..

anw, didnt hit town on fri.. due to stupid n stupid reasons.. haha.. tagged along to nadiah's band jamming session at 201's area(wah!).. details of this at NxHz.'s blog.. n for now.. ciaoz.. n good nite to u all but not to me.. PB, HERE I COME!!!..

2007-01-26T18:08:00.000+08:00

I'm dead bored.. itz 2.08am in d morning n i'm hooked up on episode 8 n 9 of PrisonBreak's season 2.. interesting storyline.. dis tv series in one shit man.. u cant ever predict correctly on wads going to happen.. ok la.. wadever i've predict so far didnt turn out right n hell no, i m so not gonna predict anything more about it.. haha.. i'd look stupid wen i realised wad i predicted was so wrong.. bt too bad, only my com's monitor is the only thing dat saw me looking stupid..

In abt 12hrs time, could be hitting town wid acap n azip.. gonna buy some stuff for me.. all dis after friday prayers lah.. ajit not following coz he's workin.. n yea, i'm so gonna work.. n most prob it'll be a nite shift one.. i juz want a job dat can occupy my freaking time man.. n i tink i'm gonna continue working till hell i dunno when i want to.. anw, results coming out.. so wad.. i did my best, lets hope for d best.. bt if its not d best out of me, i'll cry in sch till mr zul take my pic n mrs neo will show it to d next batch of sec 4 taking d O levels.. umm.. actually, if d results r gd, i'll wait till mr zul take my pic too tho.. haha..

Planned to go to National Stadium n watch Singapore play Malaysia in d second leg of d semi-final of d Asean Championship dis coming saturday.. Ijal asked han n me go watch wid him.. hmm.. but i wanted to go wid d great bunch.. but maybe, we can all go together.. n haf fun.. yea.. So hopefully, its going to be a huge group of us- me, acap, afiz, azip, razif k, ajit, han, asyraf, razif r, ijal, zul n shahrizal- headin to d stadium singing d national anthem(mann, last time i sang this was in october??) n watch Singapore beat Malaysia.. hell yeah.. the pizza hut ppl are workin i gez.. if not n if care to join, den it'll be a huge'er' group lah.. but again, not confirmed yet har.. coz azip n ajit could also be workin..haiyer.. if not den i'd watch on tv lar.. if Singapore beats Malaysia den dere's d final wad..=)

Aite.. my com's loaded episode 9.. n ciaoz for now.. I m so not gonna sleep..

2007-01-24T16:00:00.000+08:00

Bleah. n here's my update after approximately half a month of not blogging.. bt come on..with every single day since 11.1.2007 being at home n not working, i'm rotting at home..wad else, living by the same timetable everyday wic is so simple : wake up, rot, rot, rot, slp.. walla!..a day passed.. d only difference everyday is d food i have for my meals..hah!.. bet dat is so not interesting to blog abt.. unless u wanna noe every dtail of d food i'm eating like..wad colour it is, i ate egg sandwich or tuna sandwich bla3.. See? d effects of rotting at home..i sound stupid whenever i talk..n wen i go out wid frens or wad, its like as tho i'm released or escaped from prison..everything is so wow unless its dog shit rite in front of d lift u/i had juz taken n u are centimetres or millimetres away from going back home n wash ur shoes with tanah liat n regretting ur carelessness..i m ranting aimlessly here.. hah.. maybe i'm gonna write a book..haha..yea.."Guide to/on : How to stay bored after 'O'Levels".. great har.. I'm so positive it'll turn out to be a bestseller.. like, i'm sounding so dumb now..

Hmm.. more abt me now.. To everyone reading this, I am perfectly fine.. its only boredom dat has took over happiness in me dat i sound so glum or bad or moody.. bt of course, i appreciate those dat has been asking frequently how i've been n all.. only if i'm out with friends n havin fun all dae DEN its happiness taking over boredom..hmm..geddit?..i bet u do.. if not refer to my upcoming bestseller yea?...heh.. been gg out wid d great bunch ajit,azip n acap for quite countable times.. n it usually ends up in us holdin cues trying to pot in stripes or solids wid d help of a white cue ball..yeah..it alwaes resorts to us playing pool..go TP open hse, go play pool.. went to TP's Jam n Hop, dunno n lazy to ask around on how to get in, go play pool..but fun la har..with khai n seth n seri n leeteng bz at work, dey're all i haf to haf fun with.. even tho they themselves are bz/lazy with work..haha.. khai n seth been bz wid their pizzahut crew band..dunnoe wad name ar..aku sebat je..haaa..mcm paham..MACAM jek..hehe..wadeva it is,gd luck la.. n to NxHz., yea i was taking a break from band stuff, but i was actually listening to other metal acts..n to name some of dem, ranging from all types of metal genre, they're Judas Priest, Slayer, Trivium, Kreator, Emperor, Angra, Mayhem n many2 more.. to get ideas for our own songs..so yea, to mr zulraihan, I'm not disappearing totally.. n i wanna play other metal songs dat are not only from Metallica..it bores me so i gez dts wad had been making me not wanting to jam dese few daes.. of coz la i got other reasons, but from my POV, its sumting i should not be open with.. OK so i gez next time if wanna jam, i wun mind sangat now dat i'm starting to touch my guitar again..n boy..i mean it juz by 'touching'..haha.. bt one thing's for sure, jam in sch har.. no money to fork out at stupid weelee's place..dat 2hr session was better off for an hr..n i would haf money to eat out dat dae..heh..i'm not workin mind ya..

Aniway, dis seemed pretty outdated but hell yeah! d chalet at aloha resort was a great one..ok la..not bad for first timers.. I give it a/two thumb(s)-up for everything..n yea, true colours were meant to be seen at such 'events'.. i mean, i'm confident to sae dat all the organisers(those dat paid for it) are responsible enough to take care of d well-being of the whole thing..everything was smooth mann..great job everyone.. Had fun from day one till end but d final nite was marred by an incident..no need to talk it out here.. but hey, all dis will end as soon as how it started aite.. hmm..abt d chalet, it was a memorable 3(4) days with everyone namely n most importantly Ajit, Acap, Seth, Khaii, Azip, Leeteng, Seri, Syahidah n others dat came..

N dat summarises my post.. cheh.. summarises pe.. da macam essay aku tulis nk step summary plak.. haha..

So yea i wun blog much due to lack of chilli to spice up my everyday life.. sial la..my hse out of chilli sauce sia..no wonder.. hah.. anw, afiz is healthy as alwaes..only he's not been consuming chilli sauce for d past few daes..haha..

till den.. afiz, ciaoz..

2007-01-04T08:30:00.000+08:00

Fucking piece of shit cake.. I've cut my hair..n its short sey.. sad siao.. I hate barbers nowadays..dey really love their job: cutting hair..while talking. Haha.. now i look like someone going back to sch..but nvm.. at last i dun hold Popular plastic bags..n walk ard like one big idiot..wakaka(personal joke with azip n seri).. azip saed d hair was "ok wad"...'she' saed it was ok too.. ok is not enuf noe..coz its short ready..but dere is ntg i can do bout it anymore..haiyo..

hmm..29th december.. indeed it was one great dae.. summarising shortly here..after prayers time, went to suntec wih khaii n nas.. khaii n me were gg to toys'r'us dere.. to go for interview.. actually, seri too..but she backed out of it.. but in d end, there was no available part time job there..so we so called gave up for dat day.. so walked ard dat area for sumtyme b4 headin to penin.. sumhowto check out whether d guitar i want is still there at Davis..haha.. den met, seth, seri and lee teng at city hall.. n went off to downtown.. played pool there.. taught her the basics i could say.. difficult lar.. first timers.. all u need is beginners luck..and it was her first time.. yet, she played quite well i haf to say.. n seri played well too..better den seth i gez.. hah..

30th december.. hmm.. juz stayed at home n prepared for hari raya haji d next dae..

31st december..hari raya haji.. went to prayers in d morning.. n proceeded to my both my uncles' hse(my dad's n mum's side respectively) later in d dae.. bored.. slept at the latter's hse.. eh ya, it was her first day of work at parkway parade.. haha..boy, was she so excited abt it..hmm.. so, reached home at 1130 at nite.. cant go out to enjoy countdown with frenz anywhere..pissed sia..haiyo..

1st January 2007.. rot at home in d morning n went on to cut my hair in d afternoon.. den went to (gasp!) parkway parade at 7 to go shopping with my fam..haha.. saw her at her workplace..but she din see me..hah..my sis was sumhow frantically searching for her..but failed..heh.. my uncle tagged along to eat at banquet.. i was bz msgin her n bcame not hungry..juz ate a plate of chicken cutlet n dats it..

yesterday.. went to orchard with azip n seri.. juz walked aimlessly ard.. seri 'kena kacau' by azip with wad she saed.. things like "lev'el one" n "mrrrt".. aww..ksian.. i joined in too sumhow.. haha.. walked ard sumore n went to lucky plaza.. ate at MCdonalds..ajit n acap came.. went off to play pool after dat.. it was good to see ajit n acap again..so long neva see dem..like, b4 i went to KL?? long sia.. i was off form at pool.. won 2 matches out of 6..bitch.. hah.. so den met seth at HMV at heeren i gez.. after abt half hr spenidng time dere, d rest were homebound while i met LT after she finished work.. met at Bedok mrt station's bus stop..she looked damn exhausted.. so took 9 to simei n sent her home.. den, i ciao back home..late ready.. reached home got scoldings from mum.. so expeced..even d one week ban from gg out was predictable.. i noe my mum well.. juz as she sae she noes me well.. hah!..

So today, all i can do is stay at home and rot la.. kena grounded mah.. i had d whole hse to myself.. coz my sibz are all back to sch..same goes for my parents.. haha.. ok den.. done sumarisin watever dat is done a few daes ago.. no need to go thru evry dtails wad.. tk perlu ryte.. hah..

till den.. ciaoz.. cant wait till next wk's chalet.. so happy for it.. n yea, to all who noes my prob, pray for me har..haha..

Afiz.

2007-01-04T06:40:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to all!!.. i know, dis greeting came 2 daes a bit too late.. i havent touch d com since 30th of december 2006.. n now its 2007 ready.. nvm about dat.. To everyone, have a great 2007 and all the best in ur life dis new year.. 2006 was a great year for me.. sad man.. to depart from the sch i've been in for 4 yrs.. 4 yrs dat holds great memories.. 4 yrs of studies ends there(not really sad here).. 4 yrs of wearing white uniforms wic gets dirty easily stops.. 4,3,2,1 year(s) of friendship continues.. to all my greatest friends i've known for 4 years whom i regard as my brothers, namely ajit, azip, acap, khaii n seth, u guys rock big time..and we still do..wad happened after prom was really a blessing in disguise..lets pray we'll do well for our O's and still be close to one another in TP yea.. hah.. to seri hidayani, a great friend whom i called 'sis'/ seth's life partner.heh.. special thx to u ey for everything.. a person who can take my sarcasm real well n yet be sarcastic back to me..hah.. i like it tho.. ur awesome too.. to my special friend, lee teng, ur really special..hah.. tho we're still knowing more of each other, i'm cherishing every moment spent with u everytime since promnite..=).. to 4C, u ppl har.. ok la..3C was a forgettable year.. but it was much much better last year..dun care wad other ppl hev in their mind abt dis class..but from my POV, i appreciate every single one of u.. hah..to the 32 girls who made us 10 guys felt so awkward in 3C, i haf to sae, spending a year with a whole lot of u n gg for outings and stuff made me a more open person n ifelt much more welcomed..big thanks to u gerls, namely lynn, shahira, ainul, fadilah, nadz, shiffa n much much more.. n d guys too..han, jamil, ijal, yat, rifyal, roy, WX, TZW, khai yew.. oso big thanks to mdm fadilah n mrs sundar..(i dun really like the latter,she picked on me n han thruout d 2 years.hah!) n also to other teachers whom i noe wen i was still a dunmanite.. and to my band NxHz. things arent looking good at all.. i dun like wat we are now.. but special thx to han n imran for getting the best out of me in music..n d best out of us too.. one year was how long we took to get comfortable with ourselves n enjoy wad we love most.. rock on yea.. n to all friends, acquaintances, basically dunmanites(haha) n ex evps students, ppl i met on d streets and all... have a great year dis new and healthy 2007.. not forgetting my family too.. hah.. happy new year everyone!

2006-12-29T14:05:00.000+08:00

Yo.. the weather sux big time eh.. raining till next week.. so freakin cold.. haha.. yea..

Went out just now with azip.. to repair my specs n get a new pair of contact lens.. he too was getting a new pair of lens for his new 10bux specs.. haha.. juz slacked around tampines area.. ate Ramly burger.. it was nice.. very nice.. bot it from d bazaar at d open field opposite Century Square n Tampines Mall.. bot 2 bottles of Pepsi.. it was cheap. only $3.30 for 2.. so dat means a dollar 65 for one.. ryte?.. so we had a mini-feast bwh blok.. ate n ate n drank n drank.. dat razif asked me to do something stupid.. he told me to finish half of a bottle at one go.. yeah, i did it, but with a pause in between ar. so now, i am having freakin bladder probs.. all coz of dat stupid thing i did..wahaha..

hmmdats all dat happened today.. excited for tmr tho.. will post abt it once d dae's over aite.. cioz..

2006-12-26T02:02:00.000+08:00

Merry Xmas to those celebrating!!.. haha. ntg much happened today.. surfed thru youtube n found hilarious vids of old ppls.. lol.. old ppl as in metallica members.. dey are old..BUT!!! with attitude..and its goddamn funny aite.. haha.. well.. here's 2 of them.. Kirk Hammett n James Hetfield.. enjoy..

Here's Kirk's vid.. watch it at 2.45.. its funny.. he want to pee n dere's no toilet.. so, all he could do was..'improvise..'..wahaha

James' vid.. 6.38..such an idiot..6.48.. to me, these two parts amused me the most.. haha..

2006-12-25T08:13:00.000+08:00

Done summarising the trip to KL.. gee.. I am glad dat I'm home.. wah.. i miss the company of my friends dere.. haha.. everyone's fine.. lol.. Acap n Ajit started work. hmm.. never heard from dem for quite some time.. acap, mee soto m'sia tk gerek tau.. haha.. azip's still working.. khaii got d chance to work but still finding one like me.. seri too.. seth, happy with his job.. n LT, she got herself a job i gez.. so everyone's getting themselves jobs to occupy themselves(inc me) during this hols.. great..

Well, planned to jam this tues and/or thurs.. trying to get ideas out of ourselves to apply to the songs in process.. cheh.. we'll see how d session go den..

Wah.. ferst LT left forchina n returned a week later.. den khai sumhow went to JB during dat period.. den it was my turn to go out of town.. Now, its seri's turn going abroad.. haiz.. wek by week ey.. hmmm..

Well.. not much to blog abt now i gez.. been boring so far.. lol.. aite2..
N lynn, of coz la must talk abt ur hair.. if not boring sia.. no news from classmates.. rite..

ciaoz.. \m/

2006-12-24T15:23:00.000+08:00

Finally, reached home from KL on Friday evening.. Hell yeah it was a GREAT trip.. actually, only for the first 3 daes at Sunway was it fun.. next 2 daes were spent in KL itself.. so yeap, it was much of a bore there..

Hmm.. my fam took a coach from JB to KL.. planned to sleep all the way throughout the journey there after not slping d nite b4 coz of the Man U match in wic dey lost(fuck!) n saying temporary gdbyes to great friends(haha)..I love/missed u guys too!!..hehe.. well2, in the end, slept all d way in d coach till its time for a break.. n could not sleep after dat.. coz I realised dat after d break, 2 M'sian policemen escorted dis handcuffed guy into the coach.. Yep, they too were on their way to KL.. WHAT THE FUCK!??!.. can't dey use their own vehicles?.. i mean, yea, its a great way to save money dumbfucks but mixing wrongdoers with innocent ppl like me for 4 hours in a coach with no insurance and all(wahaha!!).. mann, waaaaad were they thinking.. ahah.. I gez wild imaginations got the better of me at dat tyme.. even d auntie sitting next to their seat was bloody scared.. interesting ey.. a trip to KL with a handcuffed person in d same bus sitting right behind me.. wah.. if anything hapenned and I survived(again, wahaha!!), I'd write a bestseller..=)..
So, reached the alwaes busy Puduraya, got a cab n went to SUNWAY goddamit!!.. wad a great place to enjoy.. shopping malls, themepark, great hotels with great facilities.. G.R.E.A.T.. all dere for u mann.. but of coz lar tired wen reached dere.. so d dae ended dere.. juz liked dat.. all members were flat on d beds n even on d floors.. ahah..

Tuesday was spent entirely at the theme park n shopping mall. theme park was fucking fantastic.. at the sight of their ''viking'', dey called it ''pirates' revenge'' tho, mann.. my balls she-rinked..wahaha.. bleah!! i was scared..hehe.. n enjoyed most of d rides dere.. mann, wad a dae.. Sunway pyramid shopping mall(or wad) is a much2 better shopping place den any of s'pore's shopping malls i gez.. it was huge n oh.. u haf to go dere n see it for urself..really..

3rd dae..hmm..ntg much..woke up and enjoyed every last moments at Sunway before heading to KL..n yah, the food dere at the hotel is soooo sedap.. seri, if u go there uh, tk kenyang2 nyer la.. hehe..jk eh.. Hmm... so bla3 n reached KL.. stayed at Brisdale hotel.. the view from d room was a beaut!.. the Twin towers n KL tower can be seen.. ok la, their city area is beautiful.. but d rest?.. itz freakin dirty.. no offence to Malaysians but, plz do something to keep ur country clean mann.. rubbish thrown on roofs n rats in eating houses..

Next dae was spent in KL's city area,.. the KLCC n all.. went to the twin tower's skybridge..great view.. surprised to see a dunmanite dere.. ex-dunmanite i mean.. sec5 girl.. dunno her.. so yea, enjoy every sec at the skybridge.. dat was d only exciting thing dat happened dat dae i gez.. N DEN, early next morning packed all stuff..and checked out from the hotel at 830.. the thot ofgoing home makes my dae.. lol.. coz d journey home was damn boring.. so slept all d way.. n woke up at both custom checkpoints in JB n wdlands.. the scent of S'pore air made me happy again.. haha.. so dats how d trip went.. summarised 'longly' by me..

2006-12-17T21:40:00.000+08:00

Well.. apparently she's not back yet.. haiz.. n I'm going off to KL in d morning at 6am.. goddamit.. fucking early mann.. wahh.. so yea.. I'll be back on Fri, 22nd December 2006.. 5 days to be spent entirely with my family.. and lets hope it'll be fun..

and to all my bros n good friends and all.. take care.. rock on.. I want James' mullet hairstyle.. =))

EET FUK.. \m/

2006-12-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

Been browsing thru Metallica vids at youtube.. found some of d vids.. here.. Jaymz is seen with a mullet haircut.. fuckin nice.. I want sia.. dun mind waiting for my hair to grow.. ahaha.. in case u guys dont know mulle, its actually ajit's hairstyle.. but, jaymz' hair is longer.. so dats it.. nice eh..

2006-12-16T22:21:00.000+08:00

I'm hooked to HIM's "killing loneliness" mann.. it gives u this kind of 'floating' feeling.. as wad seri would say.. but its true lar.. their songs rock.. big time.. u guys shuld listen to HIM's songs too.. info ask me.. cheh.. If i were to haf a side project band n play HIM songs eh.. fun sia.. haha..

Niwaes, bout todae.. it sucks.. same goes for the past few daes.. juz rot at home.. flu n throat suck.. been quite sick for now.. but i gez I haf to keep laughing n smiling ey!.. dats advice from seri.. haha..

Finally.. i ate mee soto ytd.. freakin nice sia.. but d begedel sucks.. haha.. ate with acap n azip.. at bedok.. INSPIRASI STALL.. acap long time ready wanna go dere.. so his dream was fulfilled n we went home full =).. otw to bedok, mt lynn n nadzerah.. wah.. lynn dyed her hair.. but d dye is only visible in d sun.. as in, wen dere's sunlite, u can see d hair colour.. geddit?. good..

so here I am.. feeling better n talking again.. haf to sae i miss her alot.. but hell yea!!.. she's coming back tmr!!!.. GREAT.. gd for me, gd for seri too.. wahaha.. BUT, I am going off to KL for 5 daes.. hoping to enjoy dere.. n haf lots of fun with my fam members.. so aite.. dats all fer now.. if wad i wrote todae is rubbish, pardon me.. I'm half-dead, as in my brain is half-dead when writing dis post.. aite.. khaii too is back.. n he got a n XBOX to play with.. fuck.. haha..

ciaoz........

2006-12-14T18:39:00.000+08:00

I love dis pic.. wahaha

2006-12-14T18:31:00.000+08:00

Todae or was it yesterdae?? was so freaking damn boring mann.. rotted at home all d way..

Woke up at 12pm, washed up, had breakfast/lunch, watch tv, had dinner, enjoyed an hr of CSI:Miami n den got hooked up on d com.. ntg much to blog lar today..

I realised dat my guitar was so fucked up when i played it ytd.. so i decided to re-string everything.. n now itz stringless.. need to buy GHS SUB-ZERO Boomers.. woohoo.. den everthing will be back to normal again.. hell yea.. but i want a new guitar.. an ESP EX series.. I'll get dat once O level results are out.. provided d results r good lar.. haha.. lets pray for the best shall we..

hmmm.. n yeah.. I wont be staying in KL for a week.. it'll be only for 5 daes.. thank god.. ahaha.. BUT, coz of dat, i wont be able to go to d family chalet.. dang..

Had some interesting conversation with friends.. Sally was funny.. Sally as in Imran's nick.. boy, he's such a jackass.. he got me tricked into it.. ajit n acap r black heads again..wahaha!!!.. but dey r not jobless.. fuck.. haha.. Han talked abt nxhz n stuff.. N juz toked normal stuff with seri.. hmm.. well, dats it.. dun need to noe everything lar.. haiz..

Imran has updated nxhz's blog.. look at him 'bitch'.. he's good.. ahaha.. but he was wrong to say dat i was cool.. idiot.. wahaha.. well, go check it out ppz.. enjoy..

rock on metallovers n all.. \m/.. C.I.A.O.Z

2006-12-13T15:17:00.000+08:00

Whoa.. what a day.. started out quite boring.. really boring lar.. woke up at 10am.. which is sooo unusual.. haha.. slacked at home till 12pm.. n den went out to meet azip'payah'..haha.. why payah? coz he wanted me to meet him AT his freakin place.. but den i was late n so we juz met up at school.. wah, graduate ready still go school ar.. for d fact dat there is a jamming corner(i say corner coz its not a room) at d basement.. it's a great place lar.. no need to pay n stuff.. equipments are brand new.. bass sounds great.. guitars rock.. drums? no double pedals.. d downturn(issit?) of it all.. so yea.. jammed from 2 till 6 for free goddammit!!!.. haha.. details of d session at nxhz.'s blog.. n yea.. imran came up with this great slow piece he created.. but it turn out to be some sort of an emo type of song.. n we r having problems making it sound metal'ish'..haha.. so for now we r on d way of having a song of our own.. cheers!.. haha

Mdm suharnie like..invited us to play on 3rd Jan 2007.. at d basement.. wen sch reopens.. cool ey? sort of like "come back to sch performance" sumting liddat.. well.. info again at nxhz.'s blog.. wahaha..

Well..actually ntg much to blog abt.. juz getting d hang of updating regularly.. haha.. haiz.. itz only 2 daes.. wad else.. 2 weeks?.. well..at least she's having fun..=)

Ciaoz.. \m/

2006-12-11T23:54:00.000+08:00

"Wah.. afiz blog balek sey".. dats wad my sis commented.. haha.. well, i gez i'm back to blogging now.. many great things has happened thru out these tymes.. really great things i say..

hmm.. finally, O's are over.. GREAT!.. but fuck.. rotting at home for 3+ freaking months?? so not enjoyable.. trying to work but didnt get replies from places i applied.. at least it would be better if we could all go to school n enjoy but NOT study.. damn.. miss dose days wen we would juz slack n not care abt studies.. well waddaheck.. NxHz. started a blog.. cool ey.. haha.. zul's idea.. well, juz giving it a try.. so yea, d blog's up with tagboard n stuff.. the url's http://www.nxhz.blogspot.com.. go there n see it for urself.. =)

As i saed before, great things has happened.. the 2 most significant ones are our(dmn sec 4 n 5 2006 batch) Graduation Day from Dunman Sec and of course, Prom nite 2006.. Yeah, NxHz. had a brief appearance(cheh!) onstage.. details on our blog.. haha.. it's well summarised.. N yea.. Prom nite was held at Le Meridien Singapore.. Glitz n glam was d theme.. I noe dis story is like sooo expired but like others, I had fun.. every second was memorable.. except for some bad tymes azip had.. it juz brought our mood down.. the 'our' as in us lar.. dunno nvm.. hehe.. So yea.. i had a memorable time dere with umm.. leeteng.. n boy, she looked great.. the rest, no need to tell uh.. haha.. supposed to meet her before prom but we (me,ajit,acap,khaii,anban,yat,roy) had problems finding the toilet.. haha.. n was clueless of where we were.. once at d lobby, waited for azip n den all went in to enjoy one heck of a great nite.. d incident after the prom made all of us closer, all as in my bros whom i've known for 4 yrs and also some other special ppl.. it was one such moment to treasure.. miss dat nite.. really..

Fast forward to 8.12.06.. Fridae's pit was well organised mann.. salutes to ajit n co.. all d food n drinks were well managed.great job.. haha.. enjoyed sum moments with her before she's off to china for a week n I'm going off to KL a week later.. so 2 wks of not hearing from her.. sigh.. yea seri, i haf raghuram.. lols.. so let dis 2 wks pass n i'll be much more happier den.. =).. n yea sis(seri)-since u called me bro..wakaka- lek eh.. dun be too stressed out of ur siuation..(cheh! mcm paham).. haha.. ape2 ktrg sumer ader.. haha.. gez dats all for now..

SO yea.. rmbr to check our blog and haf a great time.. I'll try updating this blog regularly.. nites.. niwaes.. GLORY-GLORY MAN UTD.. haha.. \m/.. rock on

2006-07-06T22:50:00.000+08:00

And yar.. argghh... juz cant stand it la.. those who change teams and eventually talked big like waddeheck..

Haiyo, haha.. most of my friends are like this.. haha.. let see..

Razif(Boboi), Original supported team[OST]-Ghana
Ajit, OST - England
Acap, OST - Czech Republik(..and many more..)
khaii, OST - Argentina..

NOW ALL SUPPORTS FRANCE.. wah piang eh!!.. can die sia... juz now in the morning, once I reached school after assembly, all of them were like FIZ!! PORTUGAL KALAH!!.. wahaha.. sian-ed..and its like 4 of them against 1??.. I lost to the pressure.. but not in my faith.. wahaha.. LOSERS!!... wakaka..jkjk.. well actually, they are.. wahaha..

Really man.. this bugs me ar.. haiyo.. go support one team only lar!!. ahaha

2006-07-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

Well, the barrier between me and seri has been removed or i guess, destroyed.. realised dat it was all from pure misunderstanding n some of others.. So there should not be any problems and everything is fine, back to how it was supposed to be..

Aniwaes, jammed juz now.. WHAT THE FUCK!!! Neon was like neonwho??.. haha.. all was shit.. My guitar sucked, gadget spoiled, mic was weird, and umm, we sucked??? wahaha.. yep!! true!!.. we suck big time.. its been like 2 months plus since the serious jamming sessions.. lemme gez.. april the 4th?? or was it 6th??..wait3.. exactly 3 MONTHS??!!!??!!.. WAHAHA.. no wonder we sucked so bad... Joshua Aaron followed juz now.. i tink he too was suprised dat we were playing like such a newbie group dat is ambitious by playing Metallica covers.. haha.. really.. even our 'trademark'(haha) of playing f2b neatly was surprise, surprise.. shitty??... wakaka.. it was an unforgettable experience tho.. holding the guitar, plag-ing it into the amp, adjusting the gadget, fucking he mike, after 3 months?? cool ey?.. i gave up even before trying Master of puppets.. my riffs are like saggy ones.. cant sout MASTER!.. wad else the phrase 'BLINDED BY ME!'.. only those who listen may understand.. wakaka.. uter crapness.. ok.. laa.. dats all..

nitez.. =)

2006-07-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

Ever realised this??.. France, so far impressive, have only won their matches since their second round match by... wearing their away kit.. yep.. the white kit.. agreeable?..against Spain, white and won 3-1, against Brazil, again white and won by a goal.. to their utmost luck, earned a penalty against wily Portugal in white and scored from the spot in white.. Is white their 'lucky charm' in these finals??.. I'm talking abt matches after their group stages.. well, hopefully they'll wear white again n beat italy in the final.. no favouritism tho.. juz want france get d gold cup n be happy and den lose to portugal in 2010. wahaha.. ambitious ey?.. good luck Les Bleus..

Portugal are not winning the golden trophy.. haiz.. saddened.. For all its worth, it'll still be Forca Portugal!!.. no matter wad'll be the result against Germany.. they were criticised by many bu here is a team who's proven to many how wrong they were to say the least out of this magnificent team.. My faith is with them.. n good luck to them in their future competitions.. They've made every Portugese proud.. even me.. boohoo..

Wakaka.. well, hopefully Fernando Torres would be a red devil next season.. plz SiR Alex.. GET HIM!!.. wahaha.. Cristiano will stay for sure due to loyalty.. He's relationship with Wayne(Rooney) is still as good as old.. haha.. now its, Forca Man U??.. yea!!.. hahaz

FORCA PORTUGAL!!!!!...n Manchester United

2006-06-21T14:01:00.000+08:00

Frankly, to juz tell out the names of the 'accused', like wat seth wants me to, it seems ridiculous.. Think abt it.. U get indirect shit or wadeva u call n as an answer, u do the opposite?? No.. not for me..

I dun mind for wadever or whoever's been treated in this shit.. I may be heartless but i tink dats how i shuld treat everyone.. however, no term of bastarding was used.. itz a reflection.. i was juz being honest n it suddely fell upon me dat wat i wrote was meant to accuse someone for bastarding?? plz.. get the facts right.. Even if u felt betrayed or wadeva, the term bastard is like totally irrelevant..

"Even the feeling to jam for fun, we did dat twice with only the 3 of us"
"Seriously.. no offence to the fourth member but it seemed dat he couldnt care less.. "
"No need to elaborate coz i dun tink it would mean anything to him"

Geddit.. I'm not writing a 'hate' post here.. Nor an accusing one..

Bottomline is, it wasn't just as it was before..

2006-06-20T16:31:00.000+08:00

Fernando Torres scored 2 goals.. Holy greatness.. But sadly, didn't watch the match.. slept after the Saudi's match.. they lost 4-0 to the Ukrainians.. pity them.. similar to Iran, their attacking is neat and swift but they lacked finishing.. Their left wing attack is like so nice to see but they were out of luck.. haiz..

Well, okay.. Some thngs to share now.. Hate the fact dat a certain person tried to discriminate the way things work in my life or ppl close to me.. yepz.. Dat person may not noe what exactly happened till this types of problems occurred but didn't noe dat he/she was 75% of the main cause of the problem.. to dat person.."do you noe y the 'thing' turned out to be dat way, till the fact dat i am not on good terms with that person anymore??".. Shit you

NeoniXehertZ has not been jamming for a long time now.. I lost part of my heart and skills at playing the guitar for now since the last time the four of us jammed alone.. itz been from 3 to 4 to 3 to 4 to maybe 3 again??.. this question ponders in my mind. as well as zul's.. Imran's going off to Sengkang and jamming would be much harder.. our impt soloist would now have a hard time coming to wee lee esp wen he can't even recognise the places in Tampines even tho he lives in the estate.. cool huh?.. Maybe it could even come down to 2.. Maybe 0?? It could be possible. Seriously, we lost our hearts in jamming where the main 3 of us enjoyed moments that were really great, but then, the O levels came and it juz had to stop.. upposedly, we realised that everytime it was going to be great for us(esp the 'arrival' of the 4th member), it all went down the freakin shit deep hole dat would eventually result in 3 of us starting from scatch again, with our headz down and low, before helding our heads quite high again.. diz happened once and could possibly happen again.. Even the feeling to jam for fun, we did dat twice with only the 3 of us, was like we were newbies who just knew about how to play music instruments.. Seriously.. no offence to the fourth member but it seemed dat he couldnt care less.. I'm being honest here.. No need to elaborate coz i dun tink it would mean anything to him..

Its a sad thing to feel like diz.. Zul is like sooo bored dat he wants to jam but I was always guilty of saying no... not dat i wanted to but usually, it would result in 'loss of money(haha), lying to parents abt whereabouts(its sinful) and finally the thought of 'are we still going strong??''.. Imran is always busy with his hectic life..in a way tho.. To jam with another person is ok but should we juz waste our precious time and money to enjoy without having full commitment even tho it was juz for fun?? Haiz..

This shit above is wad I feel.. Shit de fucker..

fisTz NxHz.